CONFUSED

2009-12-20T13:26:00.000+08:00

Always Second to Nothing...

its Pretty tiring, hate competition but sometimes masarap ding nauuna ka paminsan minsan... since I was a kid I never wanted people's attention... In fact I want them to live me alone, I never wanted to be in the limelight... And I learned how to achieve that, When people starts to notice me, I tried to evade them with all my might... Yun nga lang sometimes feeling mo they dont think your important, that it doesnt matter if you die tomorrow, Na hindi na sila nakakasakit... Sana alam nila yun, sana bigyan ka naman ng konting importansya... hindi naman sobra eh, konti lang... pero alanga namang lumuhod ka at magmakaawa... Napaka baba naman nun... Hindi ko gagawin yun, If you dont want me around, di wag... malaki ang mundo, hindi ko pwedeng isiksik ang sarili ko sa isang posisyong hindi naman ako tanggap... I'll just wave goodbye and hope you all have a goodlife...

ang daming nagsasabi magparamdam daw ako, Multo ba ko??? Alam ko tamad ako makipag reconnect with old friends, siguro Karma na toh for behaving immorally, sayang lang, you dont know me enough before judging me first... Ang hirap eh, di ko alam kung san ako maguumpisa, Pasensiya na, alam kong gasgas na yung salitang busy... Yung pagod ako, Hindi ako nagrereply sa text dahil alam kong ang haba ng usapan, at kilala niyo kong tamad magtext... Hindi yun excuse, kaya sispagan ko na magreply, Promise yan! Sa isang taon... DAHIL BENTE SINGKO NA KO!

2009-11-29T18:19:00.004+08:00

A GIRL WHO CAN'T BREAK-UP, A BOY UNABLE TO LEAVE

I was trying to look for this song for days now... I Just felt like there's a hidden message to the song... What is it for me?

Well the video stars the HYORISH Lee Hyori and Ryu Seung Bum this was song by Lee Ssang and Jung min.

2009-08-23T15:33:00.002+08:00

I DONT CARE

Of Course not! I will always care, its just that... I'm being... I don't know anymore what I'm becoming. I feel shit when people talk behind my back and I'm giving them the right to do so... Well, frankly I'll be doing the same thing if I'm not in hell hole right now! Life is just so unpredictable... your beliefs, your restrictions, your values just when *POOF!* in an instant. Suddenly nothing make sense and you get this feeling of letting go of the control you have been trying to hold on for quite sometime, The reality of it all is that no one is immune to this, I thought I was before... its like a virus ready to attack when your in the worst possible situation... I don't even know how I became this vulnerable, how I became this stupid... The bad thing about all of this is I have no idea how to defend myself... Sad, I know, but truth is I'm more scared, frightened when will my humiliation happen... Hope never... Please God, I hope its not the lesson you want me to learn...

2009-06-14T04:34:00.002+08:00

HE CRIED

Yeap, He Did! He just did out of the blue, he keeps on telling me that he doesn't know anymore, he doesn't understand why he's feeling this way, why he misses me a lot... He use to be a guy with overflowing machismo, he keeps on telling me that I changed him, that I made him a different man... It's great to hear that but coming from a man who's married and has three kids... He won't let me go, He's always around me and now he cried in front of me... I panic but I can't let him know, Why can't he just go back to what he used to be? He thinks I'm all that, Well I'm definitely not...

2009-06-06T11:30:00.002+08:00

KISS OF DEATH

Now I'm giving confusion a new definition... I hate the fact that I'm keeping some major details from my closest friends because of him, I don't understand the situation anymore... I feel like I'm being pulled by him in a manner that I don't even know how to explain, I can't explain, I can't talk, I can't comprehend, I know what I need to do but he just surprises me in every way he can. He knows how to sweep a girl off her feet, If I'm just an ordinary easy to get type, If I don't know any better, I'm feeling guilty on both sides... I hate to think that I'm hurting him but I also hate the fact a lot of people will not only be disappointed but will also get hurt on my expense, My walls are crumbling down into pieces, He just did another suprising act before I went home, I just don't know anymore, I can't even cry because I don't know why I have to in the first place, I'm so over this... I don't know if I'm in my correct mindset any longer.... All I know is if he doesn't stop my world will go down into pieces...

BUSY & HEARTLESS

2009-05-18T06:54:00.002+08:00

BUSY & HEARTLESS

Let's start of with BUSY, starting today until the end of the month I'll be pretty busy, relatives are coming home for my cousins wedding and also to unwind, Of course were here to somehow entertain them... (goodluck with that.) that means less nap time for me, Now I have an excuse to be grumpy (YES!).

HEARTLESS, I'm just listening to Kanye's song and I just started to get hurt, It's my thing to try and think too much and I end up getting paranoid. (That's just great!) How many times have I been in this dilemma, wherein I just end up being alone and sulking in one corner, My brain is an egotistical part of my body that it won't let my heart win not even once! Well, I'm not happy about it but I guess, you need to do the right thing for everyone's sake, Instead of hurting a lot of people go ahead and just ruin one's person heart, at least you have only one heart to a make a peace with. This rollercoaster is a neverending ride that I'm getting sucked in... I hope I have enough will to stay tough, But I'm just unpredictable, The next post might be, just maybe, you'll never know....

2009-03-23T13:53:00.003+08:00

PRESS THE RESET... PRESS PRESS THE RESET...

Reset everything, Let's start over again... I love my old life! Give it back! I did not ask for this, nor did I wish for this... Leave me the hell alone! Your taken and I'm not! Let me live in peace... I deserve it... I'm not stupid, not even typical! So find someone else who will fall for your stupid games. I know players when I smell one... The best I can do is stay as far away from you as possible... But how? Dodging you is getting me nowhere... Hate to be a bitch so don't let me be... let's not do this... I hate to think that someone thinks I'm yours... lets not make everyone think like that! Let's press the reset button so we can redo everything right this time...

2009-02-18T04:13:00.000+08:00

BORING EMO MOMENTS

RANTING, COMPLAINING! WHAT ELSE??? I'M JUST LIFELESS... I NEED A NEW LIFE, A NEW MOMENT, I HAVE NO IDEA, I JUST KNOW THAT I NEED SOMETHING FRESH (SUSHI IS NOT AN OPTION!)

THE ENVIRONMENT IS NOT HELPING AT ALL, IN FACT IT MAKES ME SICK DOWN TO THE VERY PIT OF MY BLOATING STOMACH! I'M SO BORED THAT I'M WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET OUT OF THIS HELL HOLE!

PEOPLE AROUND ME JUST DON'T GET IT, HOW CAN THEY? THEY HAVE NO IDEA HOW CHAOTIC MY THOUGHTS ARE...

MY MOM WON'T EVEN COME HOME AND WHILE I WAS HAVING FUN IN BANGKOK MY SISTER HAD A MISCARRIAGE, TALK ABOUT KARMA! I KNOW I SHOULDN'T BE BLAMING MYSELF FOR ALL OF THIS, BUT IT'S JUST HARD NOT TO. SHE TOLD ME THERE PLANNING MY VACATION IN AUSTRALIA AFTER OUR REUNION ON MAY. I'VE ALWAYS WANT TO GO THERE BUT NOW ISN'T THE RIGHT TIME. WHY? I HAVE PLANS TOO. I CHOSE TO BE SINGLE SO I CAN AVOID ALL THE DRAMA BUT IT SEEMS LIKE I'M GLUED IN TO IT.

2009-01-21T07:03:00.003+08:00

NEW ENTRY FOR A NEW YEAR

I can't believe I wasn't able to tell tales about my singapore misadventures/ adventures. I've been through hell and back and I conquered it while laughing my ass off. I guess when your with friends and your really eager to continue with the master plan, then no one can stop you! not even the fucking Jet star attendant! I say curse online booking!!! There's a lot of details that happen but it all went well and as my friends and I were saying, It's all worth it!" I swear! I would prefer the experience we had to happen over and over again! Even if it's against all odds! It's Fangirls against the world.... OF ONLINE BOOKING!!!

Now, I'm about to embark in another adventure! Of course, fangirl moment again! Different boyband, same gaga moments! I think this will top my SG moment! Don't get me wrong! I had a blast at SG! but this one we'll be better because all of the Bitches plus new NFF are coming! I mean if you see us together you'll know why! This time it's a diff. approach, we have a flight but we still have no ticket for the concert! Woohoo!!!! No one can stop us from seeing our beloved boylets! NO ONE! NO ONE! Can get in the way of what I feel for you...

2008-12-13T16:58:00.003+08:00

24 LESSGO!

Happy Birthday to ME! Happy Birthday To me! Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! I know It's not nice to sing your own birthday song, But I'm just alone right now, Here in my room blogging, plurking, multiplying... Just the same thing I've been doing on normal days. No special plans, but I'll be in SMX later for the Sykes X-mas Party (Grandpa Mike kasi thought of me... KAPAL!), As for now, maghahanap pa ko ng isusuot ko, No salary yet, I don't want to buy, it's just a one day event; Maybe later I'll change my mind...

I'll be in Singapore on the 18th, that might be the reason I don't want to celebrate or I'm just not into it. People here at home thinks I'm all that but I'm really not... I'm just so stress when I'm alone that I would even start to cry... *EMO moments alert!* After this month's activity is finish, I'll focus on one thing at a time... No more extra curricular activities *maybe some for my bitches! SOKOR! T_T*

That's it for now! Don't feel bad that I'm not in a good place today, It'll pass... If you know me, You know how I do it... Hafta' go and fix myself for my Parteeehhh!!! Sykes Party that is!

2008-12-08T13:39:00.002+08:00

THE END OF MY BUM LIFE

I wasn't able to write about the start of my Bum life... Well It's never too late... In short, I was let go of our account again (not by the same reason...), well, not just me but the whole technical department too... That started last Nov. 5 and suddenly I'm happy sleeping at night, doing nothing and just chilling... until they decided to pull me out from heaven and place me back to hell! BACK TO WORK!!! New account! I Don't want to, but responsibilities are there to be fulfilled! I'm just sad, Well, you can never have too much of everything, otherwise you'll be addicted to it. A month of doing nothing, not a bad idea! I loved every minute of it! Starting today I'm going to start hating myself again! Back to work tonight!!! I just feel weird!

COMPREHENSION

2008-09-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

COMPREHENSION & IMMORTALITY, Third one is A Back-up!

"I hope you comprehend, I hope, I hope you comprehend..." This lyrics keeps on bugging me! I wish I can comprehend; understand everything, not some stupid clueless being that have no idea what the heck is it? 23 years of existence and still, I have no clue about "STUFF"; As in no idea! I was wondering will life be this hard if I can understand life itself? (WTH? did i just wrote?!!)

If I have a magic lamp and a genie pop out of it and ask me to give me him three wishes... What would my wishes be? That was hard! but my Entry title will be the first in line, IMmortality will probably be the next one, Why? I guess I'm use of people leaving me behind and meeting new people that will eventually move on and leave and be outta of my system, Who wouldn't want to be immortal? I mean seriously you get to see everything! and will not be bothered by running out of time, and finally you can create a new life, a new you when all of the people you knew before are already rotting six feet under. I'm not morbid (sometimes? O.o), I'm just realistic. Who wouldn't want to have or try another life? third one, I guessis to keep my last wish until I need it when the right time comes, Hey! I need to have a back-up once my plans did not go accordingly.

BTW, what's the title of that song?

2008-09-08T11:43:00.002+08:00

Contemplating

Why Am I thinking so much, why Am I stressing out with so little things that it will be what I call a big issue after, I'm getting nervous all of a sudden just talking to a particular person, I'm getting obsessed with so many things, I'm getting tired of my daily routine, I'm just being... well plainly FED UP! I need a drastic change in my life, in my daily chores, I don't know but something different, I feel like I'm being controlled by a BIG REMOTE to do this and that just to have the days, the weeks, months and you would never realize that it's already been a year up and another one is coming right around the corner!

Why does everything pass by so quickly that I feel like I'm running out of time before I can catch up! One thing that I hate the most is getting left behind, I don't want to, I just can't! A lot of plans here and there but still no actions were taken! When will my best time be? When hell freezes?!! I wish that would be soon, coz' I need these badly!

2008-09-03T13:57:00.002+08:00

I DON'T KNOW

Can't think of anything, But I'm so anxious to know what is causing this, I'm oblivious to the reason why I feel giddy all of a sudden, that something or someone will pop-out behind me and freak me out to death! Why? I have no idea! All of a sudden I just became a person with full of paranoia, No one knows, No one can explain, How can they? If I can't even tell what I am feeling, It's like I'm longing for something but can quite grasp the fact that it's out of my reach. Bull Shit! I tell ya! Life is so unfair!

I'm not stubborn (sometimes?), I can be easily persuaded that if it's really not meant for me then I'll welcome the rejection with open arms and legs, But I rarely get something that I really want. Sometimes things that I could kill myself for wanting are those stuff that is really impossible for me to get! Why Am I like this? You got that right! I DONT KNOW!

don't ask me why I posted this babbling crap, because there is no explanation.

2008-08-17T09:29:00.003+08:00

DREADFUL BORA

What the Hell Am I doing here, when it's rainy season... Gahh!!! I Guess it's all good. But I think I'm about to get sick (I'm feeling it, It's about to come!). Anyway, it's about to end... Back to work on Monday night and Mom's already home!!! (NOOOO...) She even scold me when I called her this morning. SOrry MA! Ok, so back to what have I've been doing this weekend! As I have said it's rainy season and we went out last night, (Note to Self: Wala masyadong Clubs sa Bora if it's rainy season!) And it was raining hard! And were all dancing and drinking and we stayed sober because of the rain! Now my brother's sick! And My legs are killing me! I guess it was all worth it. We'll come back later to add more dreadful adventures later! For now! I gotta eat! I'm STARVINNNGGG!!! UUbusan nila akong tocino!!! OK! back from breakfast... Grabe naka-apat akong jagerbombs last night! (another note to self: Just drink plain jager! Red bull sucks! *stick tongue out!* Bleeechhh!) Walang effect because of the freaking rain! Tapos nag hookah pa kami! Miss doing that we'd my CC KYUWEST buddies after shift! (Kris house!) What else happen! Oh yeah! Sobrang alon nung island hopping namin! I was really nervous! Tinatakot pa kami ng bangkero! The current was really strong! Another thing is at this time of the month! Ang daming Asian sa BoRA it's like an Asian invasion! Chinese, Korean, Malaysian. As in you'll see them everywhere, Kasabay namin sa plane! Siyempre, you know me naman as being an Asian Lover, so I'm happy about that! Nung pag-uwi nga namin, we run into the same group of Koreans, Pareho pala kami ng flight pag-uwi, So they were asking if they can take a picture with us! And we were all doing the Korean post and laughing! Sabi nila it's destiny daw kasi we keep on running into them everywhere in the island and having the same flight. OK! Wah ako say about dun! I just love them yun na lang!

2008-07-27T14:53:00.004+08:00

GETTING OVER WHAT'S LEFT BEHIND

Ok! so finally I had the urge to update. Busy mode as always, pero parati lang naman akong nakaharap sa computer, home or work, walang difference!

I had already created a draft for my next post, but I forgot to finish it. I think I remember what I wrote, It's about recurring the past... I don't know! ayoko ng balikan eh... Pag nabasa to ni Maan alam niya kung ano sinasabi ko. (Kaya mo ko gusto mag-update noh Dude!) Ah! basta nakalimutan ko na sila! Honestly, I guess it helps that I don't run into them anymore... kasi bigla na naman akong makakalimot sa kinalimutan ko! GANUN AKO! ewan ko ba!

So I guess it's time for me to tell you guys that I'm so addict na talaga! hahaha! what have I've been doing for this past few months? You would not even believe it... Kahit ako natatawa sa sarili ko kung gano ako kacomfortable sa mga NFF ko! As in hyper to the max kaming lahat kapag nagkitakita! Have you guys seen the Romantic Princess promotion! Oh! yes I was there! With my fan club shirt on! luckily, the camera can't see me that much! I did spot myself in "The Buzz" screaming my lungs out... (Oh God no!) We even went to the hotel where they were staying (not exactly!)and stayed overnight! (taray!)... Imagine me filing A VL for two days so that I can attend this event and participate, I guess being tired is ok, But being harrassed by people who wasn't on our list is not something that I was looking forward to. But every emotion that I felt, every pain in my muscles vanished, Just by seeing Calvin's sunshine smile, And Chun's black orbs and cheekbones pop-up! gaaaahhhh!!! I'm still in hyper mode everytime I remember my kagagahan! Anyways, I'm outie! Going to update soon! Seee Yah!!! Mwah!

GUYS NGA NAMAN!

2008-06-02T16:44:00.001+08:00

GUYS NGA NAMAN!

Have you guys ever wonder, Why people do such things w/o even thinking of how others might react to it...

I'm still going on circles! I was really confuse and traumatize (Too Dramatic, I guess?) But I just felt really icky and disgusted after witnessing what they have done. I know, it's natural for guys to do such a (stupid!) thing, But why do they even hafta' to do it in the same place we are in... I'm not considered the conservative type (Hell no!) But, there are lines that need to be drawn, Like they did not even respect our existence or the fact that we know what they were doing... Ganito lang yan! How would they feel if there wives or girl sibling had the same thing happen to them, Won't they be furious! It's just a shitty thing to do... I know i'm young and too immature about certain things but I until I do, I won't get associated with people who have no respect for others...

2008-05-23T03:10:00.002+08:00

It's that Time Of The Month

When will that time be? How would you know if it's the right time? Is there any hint given? Nah! I'm just talking about updating this thing... Nothing more, nothing less...

I've just been feeling weird and weak (Hey! they both starts with WE!) , Don't know why and I'm not interested to find out anyway so why waste time...

Family Matters:

My Kuya still can't find a job (I guess the first one he had did not even last for a month!) and his been bugging me a lot asking for moolah!

My Ate will be coming home this June w/o my nephew (Dang IT!), miss that little devil...

Just received a text message from Mama and spoke to her about Lola... apparently my Mom is worried but she doesn't want to find out the recent status of Lola's health condition, She keeps receiving messages from our relatives that Lola is sick and she needs to be in a hospital. Well, here's the thing though, Mom's relatives are actually a burden to us from the get go... They think we have stacks of money piled up somewhere in our closet, always asking for Mom's help if ever they have problems, I grew up knowing how harassed they are, That's why I hate them (such a strong word!) I guess I just don't want to be associated with them. But, how could I say no to Mama when she ask me to take care of Lola's issue? It's like choosing my mother or despising her relatives... Don't get me wrong, I'm not a crude and cruel person (Or, maybe I am?) it's just that, I hate helping people who doesn't even deserve every little bit of what there asking for.

Don't want to think right now about those things...

Too much stress too handle, Tapos ang mahal pa ng ilaw namin! Lahat na lang ako! Unfair, Pero sabi nga nila ako na daw ngayon ang kailangan mag-handle nito... Dati si Ate ngayon ako na! Putsa kaya pala nagiging sobrang sungit na ko sa bahay! I'm the new Dragon of the Family! Ang dati kong kinatatakutan ako rin pala ang susunod sa yapak!

I need to finish all this stuff before August... Ayokong bumalik si Mama dito galing Australia na puro stress lang ang uuwian niya... Kailangan ayos lahat... Walang problema, Walang hassle!

Buti na lang may goodnews!

May Laptop nako! *Toink! un lang! Hindi na ko lalabas nang kuwarto nito! Yihee!

FINALLY

2008-04-30T16:31:00.002+08:00

FINALLY

Finally! Found the song I was looking for since last week! Whew! Ang tanga ko rin kasi magresearch eh... Anyway, maganda kasi ung beat and lyrics ng song... Also updated my Ipod & Imeem playlist for my blog... Also upload the song in Box para i-download mamaya sa office... Hindi na muna ako maglalagay ng video at bka kulangin sa space at baka may madiscover pa akong tugtog.

It's almost 5pm and I need to take a bath para hindi ma-late... Baka mamemohan na naman ako... BASURA! nka-2 late nko... d na pwede!

If you guys are interested with the song katulad ko, (She really does sound like Jojo!) Here it is:

Forget About Me
(Artist: Little Bit)

You said, it wasn't gonna be like it was before.
Then it happened again.
Pushing me back out the door.
Thought it would be for real this time.
Love me forget about the signs.
So now what do i do?
Now that I know that we're through.

Refrain:
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
If this how you want it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Too late, sorry.
I didn't have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby, I don't understand
Gave you everything you asked for
And was ready to give you a lot more
I would've given you the world
Right in the palm of your hand.

Refrain:
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
Was this how you want it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Boy, my heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away from all the lies
It's up to you
'Coz heaven knows I've tried
Tell me you're still in love.

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Forget about me
I really love you.

Something New? NOT!!!

2008-04-20T17:20:00.003+08:00

Something new? NOT!!!

So I haven't been here for quite awhile... I don't really know why? I guess nothing new is going on... Not Busy either (Busy busyhan lng!). I think kaya din ako tinatamad dahil hindi ko ma-access ung blog ko sa office... HMmmmp...

So any plans for May? Meron! Relatives are coming to Manila from Australia... Sana dala nila ung laptop ko... So my sister gave a very unusable laptop that shutsdown whenever I browse or stream... DAng It! I even bought a wireless card for 1500 php! So wasted... So my Bro in law will give me a new one... Hehehe! Lucky me! Tagapagmana ng mga bulok! Pero malamang ayos toh! Programmer ung dating may-ari... Hopefully hindi na ko madisappoint. Demanding nanghihingi na nga lng! I can't afford one or I'm just too cheap to buy one for myself... Plus, they won't allow me because ANG IPON kailangan lumaki! Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ba ko nag-iipon? Wala namang definite na plano?!!

OK so writer's strike is over so resume na ang taping ng mga series ko! Gossip Girl will be back in boobtube this April 21... Kelan kaya ang Heroes? Malamang mga mid-year and last quarter na ng taon! How bout that? Still nothings popping in my head! Told you nothing new!

Oh! I'm back to an oriental lover being... I was addicted to F4 when they were really, really famous here in the Philippines, My sister and I even paid almost 20k for there concert tickets here! Any F4 moments I was there, the whole stampede, waiting in the rain, standing in the line for 5-6 hours... Ganun ako ka die-hard, and now I'm back for more, not with F4 but with a new Boyband! Hahaha... Ewan ko kung bakit ako ganito... There called Fahrenheit... Pano ko toh nadiscover? Do u guys watch Hana Kimi (Taiwanese Version)? The one being aired in ABS-CBN. Yup! That's it! The cutie chickbone guy is my future husband... Ok I'm in line! His name is Wu Chun and I discover that his in this group called Fei Lun Hai (Fahrenheit)! I look it up and found out that they somehow replace the popularity of F4... Being interested with that description, I investigate further and became more interested with them, Then I started watching each of there drama, which some I still haven't finish, And now I'm praying that they'll come here to visit me! Just Me! HAHAH! Selfish!

Anyways, I was really planning to enroll in this Dance workshop for 2 weeks... Kaso hindi ako umabot kasi ung suweldo namin ang tagal! Hindi tuloy ako umabot sa enrollment! Namimiss ko nang sumayaw! Sana ung workshop gawin na nilang regular din para mas masaya! Para naman ma-exercise nko! Sobrang tamad ko nang maglakad! Puro na lng ako upo sa computer! Tumataba nko lalo! WAAAAAHHH! T_T

I guess there are new things... but there not really life changing... What I really want is to get out of this country... Don't get me wrong I love Philippines, but I just need to be inspired somewhere, I need a big change in my surroundings and with what I'm doing.

A FAVOR

2008-04-01T01:21:00.004+08:00

Someone ask me to post this message. I don't know why so don't ask me. Here It Goes:

TIME : 03-31-08 @ 8:32PM
LOCATION : OFFICE
MOOD : SOoooo SAD

Hi my puppy love,

I've been thinking of you since you left this morning Im so bothered, broken hearted and it made me cry, I know I shouldnt feel this way kasi its not right, tama ka when you said "ITS USELESS BECAUSE WE HAVE OUR OWN DIFFERENT LIVES", but believe me I didnt expect na ganito mararamdaman ko. Im really sorry I know di ko na to dapat sabihin pa kaya lng parang magkakaheart disease ako kapag di ko sya sinabi. I honestly dont know what to feel, I feel very happy kasi we had that wonderful moment together, the longest 15minutes of my life but on the other side how I wish di na lng sya nangyari coz it hurts right now SOBRANG NAMIMIS KITA...I was reflecting all day long and I've realized that mahal na rin pla kita even before kaya lng Im not brave enough para ipaglaban ung feelings ko for you..Its been 3 years nung huli kong nafeel ung ganitong sadness for a girl, sobrang nagsisisi ako but I know everything happens for a reason, Im just so thankful na kahit 15 minutes I was happy and I have you in my arms..Kanina I looked at your friendster read some of your blogs and looked @ your pictures together and convincing my self na your happy na and I should let go of what happen, how I wish I can say "IM HAPPY FOR YOU" eventhough it hurts kya lng di ako plastic. Dear I wanted to say sorry for taking you for granted and kung di ko pinaglaban before. I want you to know that you will always have space im my heart and you're one person na I will never forget for the rest of my life. This is the first time that IM GONNA say this and this is for real, MAHAL KITA and thank you for inspiring me...IM gonna miss you dear, wish you all the best!..Take care of yourself ok?..Im just here for you...HOPE DESTINY will lead us back together....mwah!

-BY ANONYMOUS

T_T

2008-02-15T05:34:00.003+08:00

T_T

I haven't update this thing for two months now... What have I been up to? Hmmm... Depressed... Broken hearted? What's new anyway... I still have the same issue... I just found out na meron na siya and its so much official... kaya pala MIA na! Hate to admit it but I did felt a little stingy when I saw his status, I was happy for him... I know he deserve to be with somebody else... It just hurts that it wasn't me... My fault exactly.

I want to promise something to myself... No more of those nonsense that I'm scared to be hurt by someone... Or, The fact that I'm just inlove with gays! (Although the latter one was true!) No more excuses! I will let myself out there... And maybe someday my strange guy will come and rescue me from all of this depression (maybe all I need is a prescription for anti-depressant!), Wherever you are I've patiently waiting for 23 years (Who's in a hurry?) like a queue in a toll free number.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2007-12-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday To ME!

A year older, Wiser? Hahahah... Guess that's yet to be determined... Don't trust myself on how I handle things! Pressure makes me frantic! Guys make me go coo-coo crazy! See! I'm not getting any older but not getting any wiser either... Freak! I alaways let myself down... I know I'm better than this... But can't really function normally...

Happy Birthday Johanna!

May you have more stressful days to Come!

What Do We Mean To Each Other

2007-12-12T04:03:00.000+08:00

WHAT DO WE MEAN TO EACH OTHER?

I hate you! Your so casual! I can't read you! Your like a girl! What do we mean to each other? I'm trying to forget everything about you, But I see you unexpectedly; times that I'm not even prepared to react... I don't like what I'm becoming yet, I can't help myself for feeling this way. I guess everythings my fault.. how we end up being this way... I guess... I don't really know what happen... Ang dami namang lalaki sa mundo! Hindi lng ikaw! Your not even my type but you have this effect on me! And I want it to be GONE! GONE I Say! Shooo!!! Alis!!! I'm being psychotic! and it' all my doing... Allowing my self to feel this way! To let my guard down! To be vulnerable! I'll be 23 soon... What a present! I'm still the same old me! I have to do something...

This song just popped in my head for whatever reason:

This Are The Odds

2007-11-21T01:52:00.000+08:00

This Are The Odds

No updates for a quite a while... I guess I have nothing to say and nothing to write... Been thinking of cancelling this thing, But I decided to keep it... Anyways Do you guys believe in certain odd situation? Like, what's meant to happen is going to happen... Let's just put it this way. something happen yesterday that I was stunned to even experience... I wasn't even prepared... Something I have no control of. I'm babbling again! waaaaaa... I can't even revive the experience coz it's too much for me.

Say there's this guy that I totally tried to forget, then Went to lunch yesterday entered the elevator much to my ignorance I forgot to press the ground button so after the other girl get off in 3rd flr. The elevator went up and it opened with him entering inside... Hahahaha! OMG! I guess I'm still composed and at least we got to talk... Not just the occasional Hi! hellos that we usually do when we accidentally see each other... Pero sobrang halata talaga na iniiwasan ko sya... Nagulat sya paglabas namin ng Bldg. Ngababye ako... Bakit ko ginawa yun! eh ang sabi ko s knya Yosi lng din ako... napaka-chicken ko talaga! Nabubuhay na naman ako! Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko... Grabe hindi ko pa rin talaga kaya! Ayoko na ng ganito!

Change Of Plans

2007-10-12T19:09:00.000+08:00

Change Of Plans

For two weeks now kuya Gil didn't make it to Las Pinas so he can bring Clark along. When they went home last week I barely see them since I'm working during weeknights. Now they birthday is on Oct. 15 I thought there still going to stay until the weekends but they need to attend to something... Anyways long story short we can't make plans because its just the two of us! I think Kuya ton's having a hard time adjusting to this whole new idea of them not celebrating there birthday together. Well things changed and its really hard getting used to.

BUSY! BUsy! Busy!

2007-10-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

BUSY! BUsy! BUsY!

Why do I have to be this busy? I'm taking care of stuff that I'm not supposed to deal with. God! Everybody wants something from me... Can a girl get some break?!! If that isn't enough, one of my college Buds gave me a comment that really pisses me off! How dare they? I know I have shortcomings but there not the only one I'm dealing with! I just can't have them in my environment coz' if they are I'll prolly get suffocated with all of there nagging and whatever stuff there dealing with! My high school buds won't even talk to me like that and I haven't seen them for years now (I Think Half a decade already!) and I haven't heard something like that! I just don't get why they would say that... I don't deserved it!

Then my moms business is falling down! Everybody's got some issue and they expect me to resolve everything for them! All of us told our Mom to just give up the apartment in Q.C. so we can start fresh! But mom's insisting it would help a lot! But what it did was to add frustration and stressed to my mom and myself! I don't even want to think about everything else! I just want everything to be done! So I can have some free time for myself and for something else that I want to do!.

Anyways I'm trying to apply as a crew in starbucks just to try it out, wanting to know how it feels like being one of the coffee makers.. Plus It's kinda cool coz' I'm a coffee addict so it's a good thing that I could learn how to whip some good ol' frapuccino for myself one day!

Well everything happens for a reason. If God assigned this task on me then I'm happy to obliged, I just hope God won't mind me complaining from time to time just to ease up the stress... teehee...

Hafta go now! Later readers (Like I have one!)

"MINESWEEPER THE MOVIE"

2007-09-07T00:26:00.000+08:00

MINESWEEPER THE MOVIE

Hahaha!!! I found this thread in PinoyExchange... It was posted in College Humor.

2007-08-31T19:03:00.000+08:00

LET'S MAKE TWO ENTRIES FOR THE MONTH OF AUGUST!

I almost forgot to update this thing since I've been pretty busy since we moved in a new house. Yup! I'm no longer a Q.C. girl. I lived In Las Pinas now. I still wish I can go back to Q.C. but I just realized living in the suburbs is not bad at all! To tell you frankly, I'm already getting the hang of it! To make matters worse Mama already went to Australia, she'll be gone for a year but time pass by rapidly. I Just wish we can survive without her. HE! I can't think of anything to write... I guess I'm just tired of the situation. I just want to make an entry even though is worthless... Ohhh! I want some mangga (The kalabaw ones!). Anyway... HAhaha can't think of anything! I'll just end this nonsense. Smell Ya later!

FED UP

2007-08-14T05:49:00.000+08:00

FED UP

Been tired, sick and fed up of everything... I've just been treated poorly here at work. I dont want to do favors especially for the not deserving ones... Been thinking of resigning... I'm not happy although there's a few people here I can jive with... It's still not enough to sustain everything... Plus I'm irritated and I just don't like everything that's going on... The genuity of people around me still has a big question mark on it. Ah I hate it when I don't completely trust the people around me... Everything amiss, blurry & I don't know how to interact... I kinda know them well enough that it bothers me on how I would treat each and everyone of them... The closer I get to them, the more uneasy I feel... I hate being like this... good thing I have a cover-up but I know if there instincts are good they'll probably notice it... Even a freaking VL is hard enough to attain because someone is being useless. I hate those words but I can't help it... I'm not usually like this but it's irritating enough that I want to punch him on the nose... It's affecting everything... No matter how good you perform it's still useless because of him...

And now were about to move to Las Pinas... away from civilization that were use to, away from the hustle and bustle of EDSA, Away from the life I use to have... *Sniff. I want to cry and say stop but I know its better this way... if that isn't hard enough, Mom's leaving on saturday, she'll be gone for a year and that I'm not prepared for her departure. I hate being a grown up... I feel so lost and abandoned... No one to turn to... I have so much to take care of that I feel like my head is going to explode anytime...

I'm not satisfied, I'm not comfortable, I'm irritated and I'm FED UP.

MINESWEEPER ENTHUSIAST

2007-07-31T00:02:00.000+08:00

MINESWEEPER ENTHUSIAST

After a long run and high hopes I finally achieve a time record of under 100 in expert level of Minesweeper. Haha!!! I thought it was impossible since I have to flagged every bit of mines I could find and that doubles my time. I tried to researched for the world's best time record and I found out that someone holds the record time of 55 seconds to complete an expert level! And then I saw a video in YouTube that was able to complete it in about 38 seconds but some of them are saying that it was a fake one... Hmmmm... I saw the video and it looks authentic... Well if you want to see for yourself here's a link: "http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQ9iEDMLZpw". I also read that you need to have 6-35-99 record for beginner, intermediate & expert level. So I think my scores would be qualified for that. So here's my record and now that I achieve it I'm aiming for lower time... Hell! I'm going to beat those guys!!! Oh yeah I flagged all of the mines...

DRUNK & STUPID

2007-07-18T20:11:00.000+08:00

DRUNK & STUPID

I thought this situation can only happen with guys if they got smashed, I guess there's no exception after all. Yeah I got drunk and because I'm stupid and thought that I could handle my intoxication... I had a bus ride home, Had a Nap and then that so-called nap became a one-hour sleep that I woke up and realize that I'm already in FAIRVIEW going to NOVALICHES. I don't even want to think about the embarrassment if the bus collector realize that I'm miles away from what I paid for my ticket.

That is the first time that's going to happened and I swear it's going to be my last! So help me GOD... I'll never get drunk again (Well maybe at least for a week!) There is no way in Hell that I'll feel that stupid again (Not unless, I did it on purpose!) Here's some pics of being under the influence of alcohol:

BLAST FROM THE PAST

2007-07-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

BLAST FROM THE PAST

I just found out that Grace's Is leaving to work in Dubai this Saturday... *Sob T_T I can't believe she's really going... I haven't seen my high school buds for past 2 years now. They tried to e-mail or send me text message but I just happen to ignore them because of my schedule. Although I didn't do it intently... Maybe? I really do miss them but I think missing them is not much of a drive so I could keep in touch with them. *Sigh... I guess its too late now.

I thought people that I knew from the past did not move on as much as I do, My mistake... Everybodies doing good and in great situation. As our life changes, as we mature through time and interact with different kinds of people. I remember how easy life was back then. Were not concern with responsibilities and all grown up bulllshits that we have now. All that were concern about is issues with friends and school. And we thought that was hard enough... Life can be so unpredicatable. No matter how much you plan for your future ur still unable to predict it. I hope I could go back and stay that way forever...

ELEVATOR ENCOUNTER

2007-07-06T02:23:00.000+08:00

ELEVATOR ENCOUNTER

I had lunch in McDo with my officemate. After that we went for an elevator ride. With much luck 6th floor open and guess who rode with us! Eric Carcamo (QWEST ACCT. Director I Think?) & Kristina Villaba the HR Dept. Head In K-pointe (I THink Again?!!) The whole elevator ride was an endless one. Finally when we reached to 33rd Flr. (Which is where we get-off) Kris Villaba recognized me and I just smile and nodded as an act of greeting while I didn't even look at Eric Carcamo. I'm not sure but I think he recognized me. I felt weak in the knees at that time. I know I don't have to be ashamed of anything but still, issues that I thought already vaporized through time still haunts me. I just felt ashamed. I thought things were over but I'm still unable to overcome the nightmare. I hope it won't happen again. Please! Don't let it happen again!

FOUR DAYS OF BLURTED THOUGHTS

2007-07-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

FOUR DAYS OF BLURTED THOUGHTS

DAY 1

How would you feel if you offered to help somebody so you can just ease up there burden? I just fought with my mum this morning while eating breakfast. I dont know what happen or what came over me but I just happen to hear her sentiments every morning that I became fed up and just blurt out everything. I offered her help in some financial situations that were having but she just found another way to scold me. My intentions are squeaky clean cookie cutter bullshit. The point is I offered and I somehow thought that mum would be grateful in some way but she's not. I know I have no rights whatsoever to argue with her.

DAY 2

A bus ride going home while they had a stop over in Guadalupe bridge, I saw 3 MMDA's doing squatras on the sidewalk. squatras is a form of punishment in an army training, I remember doing that back in high school during CAT if I'm late or we did something wrong.

DAY 3

I had nothing to do y'day since our connection went down. No work, No Calls, Petiks time all the way. The whole WESCO (well partly!) went out for lunch to munch on some pizza and pasta, Oh! and yeah I ordered some vanilla Ice cream too... YUMMMY!!! Were all dressed in smart casual attire coz of a certain visitor (that I thought would be an ex-pat! scared to death!) who I don't see as an authorative figure and waste my time wearing formal y'day! HAHAHA!!! Bad Girl!

DAY 4

Had a bad day today! dont know why though? I just feel like having a bad day! I'm not feeling well, I want more sleep! I almost fell asleep at the bus today! I'm almost late because the bus keeps on hogging all the passengers! I think I bad mouthed them twice already for not moving. I'm already in ayala around 9:40 but still they managed to stay around every load and unloading sign to pick up passengers! FREAKS! HATE THE FACT THAT I'm already 15 minutes earlier than my usual schedule but still I managed to be almost late! Adding up the grueling wait for the elevator to come down! Who wont have a Bad day after that! and that happens to me almost everyday! I'm not sure if they purposely done this so I could be irritated or I just dont have any luck with time! If I always ride a cab to work. Its going to ruin my budget! I can't even think straight right now! I'm like in such a bad mood! Luckily I still can keep everything inside! Patience is a virtue! so I'll have to be.

SELF-PROCLAIMED HOPELESS ROMANTIC

2007-06-20T03:01:00.000+08:00

SELF-PROCLAIMED HOPELESS ROMANTIC

I did a streaming Marathon of a K-Drama shown in ABS entitled "Which Star Are You From?" I know its kind of cheesy. But I myself hate to admit the fact that it triggered my heart from all the pain cause by getting involve with someone even falling inlove. Every episode made me realize how much I've been missing not having a special someone by my side. My CC Buddies will always insist that I do have to have someone but I'll just reason out to them that being single is a "GREAT" thing.

Why is it that I want to have it when I'm watching some lovestory but when reality strikes I'm too chicken for it. I'm a self-proclaimed single and virgin since birth (WHAAAATTTT?!!). Maybe I want to base everything on fiction. I guess reality doesn't work that way. Knowing that somehow there is someone destined to be with you. That each human being deserves to be happy with someone, Maybe I'm just asking for a perfect scenario, Maybe I'm just too picky, Maybe I'm also a self-proclaimed "Hopeless Romantic", Hate the facts but it is what it is. Kinikilig ako if somebody told me they like or love me in a most original and funniest form.

If anyone can explain to me what or why I'm feeling this way, I'll owe them my life. I just want to feel or experienced that emotion that gave me goosebumps everytime I watched a lovestory. Longing for someone to tell you those words. Longing for someone to make you feel something unexplainable but can be understood. When will that happen? I guess if I keep on doing what I'm doing that's not going to happen. Should I lower my standards? Should I not keep my hopes up? Or Should I lower my pride and not be too chicken if someone comes along? Should I not gave up that easily? Being alone for this long made me feel so sad inside. Friends & Family doesn't do it. I need someone to be complete.

ADDICTED TO SERIES

2007-06-04T16:30:00.000+08:00

ADDICTED TO SERIES

HEROES - The series I got hook from the very first episode I laid eyes on it. I bought a DVD (pirated Don't Judge!) of season 1 and I watched it until 4 am in the morning. As you all probably know it's about people around the globe (mainly Japan, India & of course U.S.!) that discover they have powers and they've been gathered to know there destiny and because yeah someone wants to kill them. I must say it was a good idea, although there's a lot of characters coming out. Season Finale was a good one knowing that New York will be destroyed because of a radioactive power that Peter Petrelli copied from TED and then Nathan Petrelli came to his aid and flew him up. But how come when Hiro Nakamura stab Sylar he still managed to escaped... And also Peter can fly since he already copied Nathan's power so why the hell did he just fly so Nathan doesn't need to help him? Weird but it came out good,can't wait for the next season.... Seen on Crime & Suspense every Monday 9pm. Next series...

VERONICA MARS - I'm a fan of this series from the get go. Veronica is a private investigator (used to be her Dad's assistant until he became a sheriff again.) and still 18 years old. 3rd season was a big a disappointment. Knowing that they trash there Season mysteries is a wrong move. and what's up with the season finale it doesn't add up, it's not even worth waiting for. I think Episode 9 when they reveal the Hearst rapist was a good season finale, and might also give veronica mars another season. I'll miss this series bummer they did not even give this show a justice. Even the series finale was bad enough that Rob Thomas himsef admits that there its not worth getting another chance. Bummer that they gave up so easily. Seen on ETC every Wednesday 8pm. Moving on

ONE TREE HILL - Up to its fourth season they became interesting with the whole stalker with Peyton and The Dan/Karen being together, Karen & Haley being pregnant, Nathan losing his scholarship to Duke for shaving points on semi's, Then Lucas finding out that Dan killed Keith... season finale is still not showing but can't wait... I bet this would be a kicker! Seen on ETC every Tuesday 8/10pm And there coming back next season!!!

CRIMINAL MINDS - I rarely catch this, The first episode I saw made me glued to my TV. It's about FBI agents that are good profiler. Traveling around the U.S. to investigate serial killers and knowing what's inside there mind. The difference with this is that there really bad ass... They like to challenge the killer and aggravate them so that they could know them better. Seen on Star World every Sunday 11pm.

That's how I've been spending my time. It seems to be boring but this was my life before. Glad to have It Back! Till Next Time!

A MESSAGE FOR MY DETRACTORS

2007-05-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

A MESSAGE FOR MY DETRACTORS:

Been through a lot for a couple of weeks, was getting detractors lately regarding an issue with the company I used to work for. Those comment that was posted made me feel worst that I even start to question if what there accusing me for is somewhat true. That's why I decide to kept my mouth shut and prevent my fingers from replying on those comments. First of all WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO ACCUSE AND JOIN IN ON THE ISSUE BASED ON HEARSAYS... YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THAT WHOLE STORY... YOUR COMPLAINING ABOUT THE "NO CELLPHONE POLICY" AND THOUGHT I WAS TO BLAME FOR IT. IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY... TELL IT TO ME UPFRONT. IF I EVER HAD ANOTHER COMMENT ON ANYONE THAT'S TOO CHICKEN TO EVEN POST THERE REAL NAME I WILL TRACK YOU DOWN!!! I DONT OWE YOU ANY EXPLANATIONS. YOUR NOT EVEN WORTH IT. SO DON'T EVEN DARE TO SHARE YOUR OPINIONS COZ' I DONT NEED THEM SPECIALLY NOT FROM YOU.

I've been quiet for quite sometime and I'm just accepting everything that was posted. I've been humiliated and was degraded and I had enough. I was raised with such manners not to stooped down to your level. But I'm not going to sit still and moped around while you mocked my humanity. I still have a pride to redeem. If you have any time to read this please absorb everything. You need it!!!

The Landlord

2007-05-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

The Landlord

DECISIONS

2007-04-13T10:49:00.000+08:00

D E C I S I O N S

After one sleepless week of battling with my brain, I was able to make a final decision to stay with Sykes & QWEST (a.k.a. QWORST) . Crying while waiting for a call, while were in a team meeting or before I sleep (I thought I was dehydrated already!) I was able to breath and think straight. Aheheh. Dramatic I know! But who could blame me. I was really hooked with the people I'm working with. Although half of them are already gone & some are starting to pack-up and leave as well; I still thought I'd give this a chance. I still have reasons to stay. I was actually talking with my shift mates this morning about the decisions that we made & I told them that I was really planning to stay on a long term basis...... Hahaha.... Need to bite my tongue. I went home and my Mother talked to me. And another decision has to be made quickly, and this one did not gave me too much option. My mom's application to Australia was placed on hold coz' of her medical results and that results pretty much made all my decisions went down to the drain. I was picked to replace her. And now my papers are being processed. And I have to write a resignation letter just in case, So I wont have to let my teammates worry about our attendance.

I have to talk to TL and AM Yvette about this, I mean right now I'm sure about resigning but the outcome of my application will decide my faith.

DECIDE FOR YOURSELF

2007-03-30T08:00:00.000+08:00

DECIDE For Yourself

This is what's going on... I've been a pain in the ass, I'm a bad daughter, bad sister, bad co-worker, I'm just MEAN. Bad, Bad, Bad. You know why? I just know. I wont let anything out anymore coz' I know people tend to judge. And I hate feedbacks, Especially the one's the are opposite of positive; What's that again?!! It's much better when I know what I'm doing and i'm the only one that can look at myself in that perspective.

Anyway changed topic tyoh.... Ayokoh nah ng ganitoh... This is a very weird position. Its either this or that. No matter how I picked, there still a what Ifs? I don't want to talk about it coz it makes it worst.... Pero nandito ang blog na toh, to let me write anything that I'm going through.... I have to either stay or to move on. Ganito pala kahirap mag-decide if ur really going to leave something behind. I'm happy of where I'm at. Pero influences are all around me that I can just hear all of there complaints that it make me realize I have sentiments of my own. Pero is that enough for me to leave everything behind? To just move on to another great opportunity. Kung ako lng naman satisfied nkoh d2 eh. Kso kung merong mgandng opportunity would I pass it up because I just dont want to take the risk. or even I just hate the fact that I need to moved on. Kung may masamang nangyari sana mas madali mag-decide sana mas motivated akoh. Pero sa pagkakakilala ko sa sarili koh, I know what I want pero If people around me are really involved dun ako mas nahihirapan. My conscience gets the best out of me. I need a sign coming from HIM. Para naman malaman koh nah may tamang decision akong gagawain. Funny how i just ask the lords help if i need it. I dont even remember his name when I'm having a good time. Ganito na tlgah ako kasama ngayon.

I'm sorry.... ngayon pa lng sasabihin ko na toh. sa kung sino mang masasaktan sa mgah darating pang araw. I hope u'll forgive me. I hate when someone is disappointed. I've never been this selfish. Pero hindi koh alam kung kakayanin ko toh. Ayokoh ng masamang reputasyon maiiwan. Cguroh sa susunod na mapagdaanan ko toh mas madali nah. First Timer Kasi.

Celebrity Look Alikes

2007-03-10T13:12:00.000+08:00

Celebrity Look Alikes

My CC buddies started this! I got curious so... and this is my celebrity look alikes.

I knew it! I was born to be an oriental being.... hahaha!!! That's why I'm so fascinated with them. Now I understand why Filipinos aren't talking when I'm in macau..... This is Proof baby!!!

I Can't

2007-03-10T05:07:00.000+08:00

I Can't

Being Surrounded by People Who Constantly Bicker is pretty much how I describe

what's going on in my life right now. In a snap of a finger they'll just exchange words like pack of wolves, Funny thing was, I'm the youngest but I get to be the mediator, the peacemaker, the listener. It gets tiring, I know! But no matter how much I complain about it, I just need to simply bounce back and be stronger than before. I cant stop being that person because people constantly expect you to do so, coz' being that person makes life a wee bit easier for everyone, coz' being that person makes them just focus on there self-centered lives

No matter how tough you may seem to be today, You need to be tougher the next day, the next hour, the next minute or even the next second, Hell! you need to be tougher in a blink of an eye!

I can't be irresponsible, I can't slack off, I can't be like them.

A New MOnth

2007-03-07T08:00:00.000+08:00

A New MOnth

I just had one entry for the Love month. I'm not particularly sure why though? I mean, Come on! its Love month I'm supposed to be inspired or something... But hey, nobody's inspiring me; So why the hell do I have to?!! I think my previous entry says it all. I'm just tired of life (period!).

Ate jojie & I are exchanging few emails recently, emails that made me cry in the moment I read her reply. She'll even give me a text message afterwards just to say how proud she is of what I'm doing and how I react to certain things mainly on our family crisis. That really feels good on some aspect, knowing that your doing the right thing. But how come I still feel so empty inside? I still feel so unsatisfied, I'm aware that one mistake, one sin can make the situation turn to a 180. I'm so frightened that everything that I've become will vanish into thin air in a flick of a finger. I guess I'm too paranoid of the future and what's in stored for me. If I can just get a glimpse of what's going to happen, so I'll be prepared.

I'm acting so guilty of something I'm not even doing; It's like I deserved to be punish for no apparent reason. This is what I get for not posting anything for a month. I can't even talked to anyone coz' I dont really know what's bothering me.

My mom's going to leave soon (a month from now. still not definite though.) It's the first time I'm going to be alone with no guardian; the last time mama was gone, ate was around, and now since my sister is now located overseas. I'm orphaned nanny! weehee. I can't even considered my brothers as someone I can look up to. I mean I considered myself older than them when it comes everything. Them being a full-time bum is pretty much sums it up.

So this would be the month where life pretty much, SUCKS!

LAZY

2007-02-07T04:40:00.000+08:00

LAZY

I've been typing in circles, Don't know how to start this entry. Been out of the picture for the past twenty years (days I mean). (I think?) I was pretty busy with the days that passed. Been going around trying to satisfy my needs (although I cannot identify what it is?) until now I felt unsatisfied on everything that's been going on. Don't know why. I think somethings missing with my life and I know what it is... I just hate to admit the fact the I'm sick of this life that I do have right now.

Been going home for the past few weeks and as usual someone's on my room. Practically occupying every inch of it. I don't even stay much in there since I've been working 24/7 (OA!) And when I do stay I can't even do anything without them asking me to lower down the volume of the TV. I want my room Back... They change my room, occupied my table, AHHHHH... It's so freaking frustrating. I'd rather stay out of the house. I know it sounds so selfish. But I'm the one working my ass off... I got the smaller room, But I'm the one who's sharing!!! It's a little bit unfair in my point of view. I don't want to say anything w/o them thinking bad about it. But I just hate the fact that my room's a mess..... And I don't even have the guts to clean since I'm so pissed off by it. hope I can get over this stuff... It's really bad to feel this way... But I really can't help it. I hate being taken for granted.

Moving on. The team are doing ok. Lucky Implemented a fine so we can be able to reach our absenteeism goal. Last month were the last team on the whole account. Whoaaa.... In Pao's term "WE WERE FLOORED!!!" (in short nilampaso kmi!) last week we had 1% beacuse Maan needs to attend her uncle's burial. Speaking of her.... I received a message about 2 pm y'day, when I was about to close my eyes. She's inviting me to have a drink. I wasn't able to reply coz' I have no more credits on my phone, And Globe got some sort of an issue on Autoload (andami dahilan pero totooo un!) I know she's having some problems' she's not going to invite me especially for drinks if she's not carrying such a burden. Sorry dude.... I really can't I was too tired. I'll make it up to you..... Churi tlgah!!!!

O syah.... Ako'y binentahan ng Davidoff.... what 3,500 php.... ang sakit sa bulsa.. pero gusto koh eh.... Wala nkong pang-line... basurah! masyadong magastos....

BUHAY SUSPENDED

2007-01-17T04:30:00.000+08:00

BUHAY SUSPENDED

OK! I'm stuck at home; I'm supposed to be at work but my suspension has finally given a date and it would be two days starting y'day. I'm going to be back at work by Thursday... No taking calls or whatsoever.... Just plain ol' rest. At least I got to sleep a lot and do somethings I missing out on. I have a lot of errands and things to do and finally I have the time to do it. I think giving that punishment was a blessing enough for me... hehe.. I was even happy that when I read the email. Don't get me wrong I was kind of hoping they would let go of it but it was something i really deserved for.... Not that I want to be suspended but I never really argued about something that I know I was the one who does that... I mean what would I say to them I was late because I slack a lot... That's crazy! right?!! I was kinda of waiting for it in the long run... I told that to Pao when he gave the papers to sign... He even partly blamed himself for not doing anything about my tardiness and I always told him that it was just my fault... I would even need that just to have a lesson learned for myself...

Well since the year started I only got two instances of tardiness and that was about it... I don't want to jinx my streak... Hehhe... I feel so proud of myself.... I feel boastful about it but it something I'm really proud of. I just want to see on mY PMP a four when it comes to my last attribute... Which is.... yeap! u guess it right Tardinesss!!!! since I started working I got a 1.00 on it... If i was on college I would be happy about it; but at work 1.00 is unacceptable....

I'm going to see you all in Thursday!!!! I'll be back again.... not with a resignation letter! I promise! Chris (Kulot!) sorry poh... ur all alone on our shift.... bonding muna kyoh ni Lorraine.... And i know u got ur cellphone to bond with... as for the other MInotaurians.... para nmang nagkikitah tlgah tyoh... prang hindi nman akoh nwala tlgah... i'll see u guys....

As for me I have to clean my room which is by the way become a dumpsite since I started working... It smells really fowl! I dont even think I roomed there anymore.... Do my laundry... buy some stuff for my sister.... And the list goes on..... the last thing would be buying the new phone I saw... geezzz... I can't even afford to buy one right now... I'll just wait for it to become cheaper... coz' I might need the cash later on.... See yah!

My Brother's Paranoia

2007-01-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

My Brother's Paranoia

I went home early morning last saturday... After 4 straight days na inuman with KULOT & DOMS... I thought I'll be able to get a break from alcohol, I arrived around 3:45 am at andun ang aking butihing Kuya at Clah Andrei & Wewe... inuubos ang tequilla... pinashot akoh... by request magbihis daw akoh at mkipaginuman at kwentuhan sa knila.... un plah may itatanong lng skin ni kuyah.... itoh poh ang mabigat na tanong....

MAY BOYFRIEND NA DAW BA AKOH?!!!

Abah?!! bakit nila akoh tinatanong ng ganitoh.... I thought lasing lng c Kuyah... kasi sa lhat sa family alam kong sa knila akoh pwedeng magsabi kung meron na ngah akong special someone... Pero hindi pala.... may kasunod ung tanong.... isang BABALA...

PAG IKAW NALAMAN KONG MAY BOYFRIEND UUPAKAN KO YUN!!! BABALATAN KO YUN!!!

Hala! bkit may ganun.... at nagdebate na clah nila andrei at WEWE... Pabor clah WEWE sa side koh... wag ngah lng daw akoh papakatangah.... inaaway na ngah nila c kuya hanggang sa point nah magkasagutan nah....

Sbi koh sa sarili koh... Hindi pa ngah akoh nagkakaroon... ganito na ung pressure... cno b nmang lalaki ang magkakamali kung sampung lalaki ang nkabantay sakin.... hay masakit sa uloh... dalawang side ang nagpapayoh.... Dito naman sa office wag daw ako matakot... Kung matatakot daw akoh tpos after 10 years takot pa rin daw akoh.... eh di sana hinarap ko n lng daw ung takot pra the earlier the better.... Huwag daw akoh matakot masaktan dahil it will make me a better person at the end.... Hayyy...

my family hates the idea... I'm not sure kung ipapadala nila akoh sa ibang bansa once they do find out.... alam ko parang syang telenobela... pero totoo un eh... nagawa na nila sa ate ko sakin pa kyah... I'm not blaming them for what they did... My sister is living a goodlife now... pero I want to create my own destiny.... Something na pag dating sa huli eh wala akong sishin kung di ang sarili koh...

BY THE WAY... IT'S MY PARANOIA also...

UPDATE THIS SHIT!!!

2007-01-03T20:07:00.000+08:00

UPDATE THIS SHIT!!!

Whoaaa!!! back to our old "maharlika" shift... Our scheduled changed from night to afternoon... Well at least four of us did... Our other Teammates was placed on a Morning shift with no Hazard pay... Too Bad. We were divided in different times... (Cguroh sinadyah parang walang maingay sa floor!!!)

Lucky & The other Minotaurians are ragging about "Steve"... Who is Steve? Well his another agent from RS, We haven't met in person... we just exchange Emails every now & then kso napadalas atah kyah nahalata na. His call was transferred to me by "accident" and that's how everything started... Un lng po un... Wala nmang special about samin... His just an "acquaintance" that I happened to exchange emails every shift... But our shift already parted since It changed... So Outlook is pretty much a bummer now... but we still managed to exchange text message from time 2 time...

Happy New Year everyone!!!

TWO WEEKS MIA

2006-12-29T08:14:00.000+08:00

TWO WEEKS MIA

WTF?!!! 2 weeks of no update on my life... heheh... tamad lng cguroh akoh.. or I've been just pretty busy wid everything... hindi ko lng sigurado kung ano ba ang pinagkakaabalahan ko...

Well just had a christmas wid my family and I was unable to go on office afterwards... I fell asleep coz' I was pretty tired... Then I was able to wrap up some gifts for my cuzins and pamangkins... We had family reunion/X-mas party in Fort Boni. like we always use to... pretty boring though, not like the way it used to before... Lot of our cousins already went abroad so few of us are left here in Manila...my sister who used to organized all our events and parties left us this year to go abroad and that pretty much sucks since I had to be the one to replaced her... Sucks! I know... I only get to have a 2 day rest and I can't even get to spend it nicely without anyone asking me for a favor like they used to do with my sister. I mean I don't hate the fact that there asking a favor but unfortunately I'm working my ass off! and theyt expect to go ahead and organize everything for them... I mean sheesshhh... I dont know maybe I'm just being too selfish with my time... Am I? If I am... maybe I deserve it...

We went to Marco's place y'day with Mommy and Maan, Kala ko inuman nah... Putsa sayang may lkad si mommy pupunta p kay boyfriend, C maan nman magkikita cla ng kanyang "Daddy".... Kayah ayun..kuwentuhan at sound trip na lng ang ginawa nmin...nagpasahan ng tugtog sa bluetooth, tpos nagreminisce ng mgah sayaw nung sinaunang panahon... hehe.

Got home around 3:30 p.m. naligo dahil gusto ko nang basain ung buhok koh... actually hindi pa syah allowed kso ang oily na tingnan ksi kadiri... tpos natulog... ngayon office nkoh at kinumpletoh ko ung update koh for the past 2 weeks.

Grabe Marco & Kavie already decided to resign unti-unti nang nalalagas ang Wave namin... Well I'll miss them pero kung hindi tlgah clah happy sa work nila... ganun tlgah... cguroh I'm just blessed at napunta akoh sa team nmin ngayon... and worthwhile nman ang experience... Naiyak ngah akoh sa E-mail ni Pao eh... Sana tlgah mapigilan ko na ung late koh para matapos na ung kaso koh.... Hayyy... bhala nah... Wait lng mdyoh mahaba na naman toh bka wala na namang magbasa nito...

Byebye...

2006-12-25T10:30:00.000+08:00

JUST WANT TO SAY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!!!!
MERRY, MERRY, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

RESTDAY, SENTAI MARATHON, & BEING A LONER

2006-12-18T15:44:00.000+08:00

REST DAY, SENTAI MARATHON, &
BEING A LONER

I had a restday since y'day; I slept the entire day after I got home from work, Imagine having 24 hour sleep khit na hindi diretso if u want to calculate the hours I spent sleeping, it would be more than that. Talk about some addiction! With my job, luxury na sakin if I can get 8 hours sleep everyday; that's if I get to sleep everyday, I was pretty exhausted the whole week, tuloy-tuloy ang labas koh with friends and late nkoh mkakauwi because I've lost the track of time and there's a minimal amount of time to sleep dahil ilang oras na lng scheduled shift mo na naman..... It was a pretty hectic though mabilis din naman... Sabi ko ngah kay Maan ang bilis ng panahon dati were a year younger tpos prang kumurap lng akoh matanda na akoh!!! AYUKUH!!!! Well na sa saten n lng din naman kung pano natin gagawing worthwhile ung time natin... For me hindi koh alam if I'm doing great.... bsta alam koh mdyoh magulo pa rin plah ang utak koh.... Enough about this....

I've been glued in front of My Pc since i got up about 7am, What am I doing? Watching Kenny,Sammy,Frankie, KC, Kimberly,Peebo & new yellow 4 Jun; in short BIOMAN, good thing I found series episodes in You Tube and its english dubbed!!!!Woohoooooo!!!! I've always wanted to watched my favorite Sentai Series... just to reminisce my childhood... Bioman is one of them... well I've already searched for maskman I'm not really sure if all the episode they posted is dubbed in tagalog... I'll finish Bioman first (That would take me till next year, Kuya told me and I double checked that it has 51 episode hayyy.... I'm still on the 14th thats why I want to buy a DVD so I can be able to just watched it inside of my room..... Guys anyone know where I can find one? Even in the office khit walang sound nanonood pa rin akoh.... khit may calls etoh lng pinapanood koh.... Hindi pa ngah clah pinapalabas sa HERo channel kulang na lng gumawa akoh ng petition na ipalabas ung tatlong favorites koh ksi ung Shaider pinapalabas nman nila ngayon.... tpos ayokoh ung mgah Mask Rider nila ngayon ang papangit mas guwapo tlgah ung orig at mas mganda pah ung story..... MAsk Rider Black.. did u guys remember that? Ay nkuh I might sound like a kid pero addiction koh tlgha toh nung bata pakoh at parati ko tlgang gustong mapanood ulit ung mgha gnitoh.... OLD SCHOOL!!!! Da best Pa rin ksi eh....

I was supposed to go to the bank today kso ngah.... parang araw2 n lng akoh umaalis nakakatamad na ksi... I just want seclude myself inside my room and makinig ng mgah sentimental songs.... I've been doing that for the past three days... Mag-isa maglulunch pra lng bumaba at makinig sa MP3 ng mgah songs tpos pag-akyat koh tinatanong nila kung san daw akoh galing.... sabi koh sa baba.... ang sarap ksi sometimes maging loner.... tpos wala kang kinakausap kundi katahimikan....Mas nararamdaman mo ung bawat lyrics nang tugtog..... Mas maiisip mo ung mgah ginawa mo.... Mas may sense kausap ang katahimikan.... Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero may mgah punto akong gusto koh mag-isa lng ako at walang iintindihin sa mundo.... Loner tlgah akoh... ayokoh ng maguloh gusto koh prating tahimik.... pero People changed din ksi lalo na pag nkakilala kah ng ibang tao.... ibat-ibang personality kyah nwawala na ung mgha ganong traits koh... Pero U can't blame me If I chose to come back to my old self again khit paminsan-minsan lng..... Boring walang kasama alam koh..... Pero mas masarap mag-isip kung mag-isa ka lng..... Kanya-kanyang trip lng yan... akoh pag-iisa sa isang sulok..... Bakit ba? ako nman mag-iisa dbah... kung dko ko rin naman magusgustuhan ung trip koh akoh din naman ung may kasalanan..... haaayyyy...
Kyah nxt time na hanapin nyoh koh sa lunch break.... Ako't nagsesenti lng sa baba at nagmumuni muni....

BABABABABYUUUUU. . . . . . . . . . .

SLEEPSLESS

2006-12-15T06:14:00.000+08:00

SLEEPLESS

Just came back from an OT in RS.... Didn't get much sleep before that... was supposed to be there around 3:30 but too much traffic going on the outside world that we had to hurry up to be there in time;

Tumatagaktak ang pawis koh habang palakd sa gusali na malayo sa babaan ng TRen, Masakit ang Paa at Inaantok sa kawalan ng tulog; Dkoh na maatim magreklamo dahil sa responsibilidad na inatay koh sa aking sarili... Ay! Parang makata akoh ngayon hindi koh alam kung bakit? Hmmmmmm....

Ako'y inaantok; Babawi ng Tulog, Ako'y hihiga Pagkatapos Tawagan; Mahihimbing, Hihilik; Wala ng Malay, Gigising akoh, Tapos na ang Tulog... BOW!

Dinadaan koh n lang sa Tula ang aking kakulangan sa Tulog... Gusto ko nang manahan sa aking higaan...(Etoh na naman akoh!!!)
ayoko nah ihinto ang aking ginagawa...

Ngayon ko lng napagtanto na ang isang taong kulang sa tulog gumagaling sa paggawa ng tula... Base yan sa aking kawalan ng Tulog...
At ngayong kulang pa rin ako sa tulog kahit na ano ang aking isipin at gawin ang diwa ko ay tulog pa rin ang naiisip....

Itong ginagawa kong Talaan ay akin nang tatapusin na akoh ay makatulog at mahimlay ilang oras na lng ang ililipas...

Asus! ayoko nah... ako'y isa ng SAbog at adik, Maraming salamat sa tikladong aking ginagamit... paalam na po....

(Binilang koh ang katagang "Tulog" sa aking talaan umabot sa labing-isa isama pa tong isa naging labing dalawa nah! BOW!)

TOO Little, Too Late

2006-12-12T12:14:00.000+08:00

TOO Little, Too Late

Too little, Too late My song for the past two weeks now.....

Haha!!! Bkit? Bashtah!!! Hmmmmpppp..... Sa sobrang sakit ng naramdaman ko nasabi ko nah tuloy kay Maan At Chwis.... Pero its over nah.... Just updated my blog with heartbreaking songs.... Gusto ko un lng naririnig koh ngayon.... anyways change topic tyoh!!!

We went out last sunday,,, B-day Ni maan!!! 23 years of existence dude!!!! woohooo.... Wag mo na isipin ung mgah malulungkot na nagyari.... what matters is ur sort of happy right now... Akoh bukas!!! ayokoh pumasok....

Celebrating my b-day is something I'm not use to.... Bkit? ewan ko.... I just want that day to pass by w/o anyone noticing that it was the day my mom gave birth to me.... Bastah, Kinakabahan akoh pumasok.... Isipin koh n lng sana walang umalala... ayokoh marinig ng ibah.... Iniisip kong magtalukbong ng Kumot...kso walang epekto..... Bahala na c Batman...

The 3 of us ended up here at home coz' chwis needs to talk to dardar for 30 mins w/ webcam...since pagod na kmi..... Nakita clah ni mama... My mom suggested that she'll just cook and just invite everybody here..... heheh... Imagine all of my CC buddies on One roof.... whoaaaaa...bka daigin ung 9/11 nun..... NOnonononono...... hindi kakayanin un eh....mamaya isipin koh n lng.... was just thinking of PIZZZZZZAAAAAA!!!!!! ang gastos nun.... AY ewann.... cgeh magbarbeque munah akoh sa kbila tulungan ko clah kuyahhh... start ng business nila ngayon eh..... Taga-halina ng customer or taga-ubos ng barbeque..... Gushtoh Ko ng Mangga!!!! naglalaway akoh!!!

BTW, Thanks for the B-day Gift cuzin' hehehe.... ginagawa mo naman akong girl masyado eh...dnt worry I'll wear this.... And Daddy Hazim, tsalamat din poh sa b-day card.... nagabala ka pa.... Kala ko kay MAan ung ipapadala mo.... Tsalamat ng mArami.....

SUPPRESSION

2006-12-08T16:47:00.000+08:00

SUPPRESSION

Controlling or restraining one's feelings.... Why? I have no clue... But that's what I'm doing right now. I think mostly fear triggerred this; or maybe I'm just a big ol' COWARD!!!

why does everything have to be so complicated?

I feel so exhausted from all the stress and drama that's going through my mind... I fucking need a break from everybody!!!! I just don't wanna be with people right now... I just can't take anymore of this... Suppression that's my companion in life.... Hafta suppressed what I feel for the sake of others... Just Let me be.... I just want to have a peaceful life from here on out.... No more drama... I'll be a year older weeks from now and I just want to have a different perspective in life... I hate when I end up doing the same old thing... Ending up feeling the same worst pain I always encounter... Doing what I do best; run, contain, hide, showing everybody that I'm fine.... which is totally opposite!

I know u guys will hafta read this.... I'm just having an episode right now... Don't really want to talk about it... I just need to face this myself... No one can help me.... Nothing can make me feel better.... No small talk can solve this.... Not that I don't need ur companionship and guide or anything its just one of those things no one can help me understand the situation better.... NO ONE.... I know I'm not making any sense but believe me.... I'll be back again... give me a day or two... Or maybe after I wrote this entry I might be able to get back on my old self again.... we will never know....

Just let me be....

HECTIC WEEK

2006-12-04T06:52:00.000+08:00

HECTIC WEEK

the whole week was pretty hectic I had to stay in the office or come early so that I can be able to help on our X-mas party presentation...

Me & Maan was supposed to go to greenhills last wednesday and it was postponed due to unforseen circumstances (btw this terms were suggested by kulot...) hehehe...in short may nagtext sakin.. c tex jo... hehehe... what a cliche... tex texted me hehehehe... ano ba yan kung san-san napupunta ung usapan... so he texted me, infoming that AM Yvette is looking and asking for such a favor.... waaahhhh... then got a call from Jerson telling me the same thing uhmmm ok....wait lng ha...bkit ganun? hindi nman ako ung naatasan mag turo but wait there's more... I actually had to postponed my plans for that day due to the last minute favor..Hay Nakuh!!!... So I owe Maan A date (Huwhaaatttt!!!!) hehe... tpos I just told her that we can just go to greenhills after our shift... peroh hindi pa rin kami natuloy dhil nalatsing atah akoh... ewan! bsta alam koh hindi koh napansin na gabi nah at nabagyo... at may sa damakmak ng message at miss call sa cellphone koh... primary message from maan... kung san-san nagpunta ung babae prang lng mahanap akoh at akoy natutulog lng pala... Ang tsama koh tlgang nilalang sa mundong ibabaw... pag gising naligo; pagkatapos maligo habang tumatakbo sa kuwarto, nagtetext kay Maan para magsorry sa kasamaan at sama ng loob na naidulot ko sa knyah... dude tatlong beses ko inindyan un... khit cno sasama ang loob tlgah... kaya nung kinabukasan ayun.. kahit alam kong wala akong tulog at pagod at machakit ang katawan ayun lakad kami sa greenhills.... khit gumegewang nkoh kakalakad... keri na rin un... after nun we went home pra ipahingah koh ang aking mgah mata.. pero wait meron pa pala ulit akong napangakuan..... C TL footspa daw kami... hayyyy... Tpos tuloy sa Dish at magprapraktis daw kmi kuno... ayun nkatangah lng kmi sa Dish ng ilang oras at ang tagal magsimula... habang on-going ung party akoh grumpy... nasa-sulok, alang tulog, masakit ang ulo, gusto pumikit ng mata koh, ayun sabi ng mgah kagrupo koh bakit andun daw akoh sa dulo at hindi sa table ng team nkaupo ang sabi ko nman eh... save ko lng ng upuan ung mgah friends koh, which is true pero hindi ngah lng tlgah akoh lilipat sa table nila... tpos intention ko tlgah dun sa dulo pra makatulog akoh khit papano... kala nila tuloy Badtrip akoh nung mgah oras na un... d nila alam lutang lng ang utak koh sa kasarinlan...tpos etoh nah da last performance of the day... KAMI NA YUN!!! waaahhh... its a song and dance presentation... pang pasira kmi... pero oks pa rin halos kso di lang ako nahinga habang sayaw...nung nakapila akoh pra kumuha ng gift may humatak sa arms koh... c Vino... nag merry christmas.. won't let go of my arms hanggang di ko syah binati ng maligayang pasko rin... anak ka ng puta pagkatapos kitang pandirihan dahil sa pag-giling giling moh.... ok Ka lng.. Adik kah!!! after nun back to work... lhat kmi walang matinong ginawa sa trabaho...lahat tulog habang nagtroubleshoot...lahat bangag...lahat gago sa cx...

AFter 2 1/2 months of waiting I finally had my period!!! whoaaa... I shouldn't be revealing this I know some of my guy friends would be Icky about it but I just don't give a fuck!!! I'm happy although hurting... due to a dysmenorrea... OUCH!!! it really hurts... pero its oki...

Lucky texted me yesterday may sinabi saken... baka daw madevelop ako kay uhmmmm... ewan ko bah... ganon ba yun... told lUcky it's not going to happen... because its going to be against my rules... DUDE A friend is just A friend trust me on that... oki? walang Malisya... purong Katarantaduhan lang toh... purong friendship; I never did any thing like that and I'm not planning to start it now...

Our TEam is going to have a X-mas Party today wala pkong regalo sa Nabunot koh... hindi ko pa nahahanap ung gusto ko ibigay sa knyah... ahuhuhu...

Si Maan Machadong nagdadrama... she feel coldness daw... Dude malamang malakas aircon dito!!! ang arte... Dude I'm not going to abandoned you crah k bah... Can't blame her either ksi since we parted ways due conflict of schedules and my teammates... hindi na ngah kmi masyadong nakakapagbonding... Parati ksi nagyaya ang team and I can't say no dahil ayaw nila ng ganun... Ako'y naiipit sa sitwasyon... All I want is accomodate everybody... aKala ngah ni tEx badtrip akoh nung friday ksi nagyaya c Marco mag-inuman... kso hindi na ngah akoh sumama dahil ksi ngah basta un na un....

C Lolo lucky pinagalitan akoh... ksi wala akong gift... bumili na lng daw kmi... tpos mamyang 10:30 na lng daw simulan...opoh bibili na kmi...

hehe...bye na at ang dami ko nang piangsasabi... Isang linggo walang update... andaming nangyari kabalbalan...

FOR MAAN

2006-11-28T09:00:00.000+08:00

FOR MAAN

Dude just read ur blog... It's not that we dont trust you enough to believe that there's really nothing going on with the 2 of u... It's just that it's really hard for us to believe that he doesn't feel the same way about you which is what where scared of (or in other case we dont trust him enough to take care of you!)... I know u know that all we care for is only ur welfare... Sweetness can become something else... U know that from the get go that we really dont approve of what you guys are doing, not because we dont like him its just because we know how others would think of... I mean imagine us; ur friends thinking that way and we know u enough to even think that... So how would u even expect others to not think that way... Especially the others who dont know u that much... Think about it dude... we just love yah... I know we cant blame u enough for this but just think about it ok... I know its really hard for you to stay away from him but its much harder when you just created a chaos that's going to be something ur not prepared to take care of... Anyways were going to talk later and ur probably going to hear the same thing... If u need our help or need some kind of power just to stay away from him we can be able to provide you with that, otherwise it's really up to u on how u would deal with this, Ur a grown up, all of us are, just think of what ur supposed to do and not what ur heart tells u to feel, remember our brain was placed on our head higher than our heart... so it was there for a purpose...

LANGO

2006-11-27T05:48:00.000+08:00

LANGO

Masakit ang ulo,Inaantok,nahihilo.. buti na lng tinext akoh ni F4(Kris) kundi, nkuh patay absent cguroh akoh (Pao peace tyo!) hehehe... Pag tayo koh ng kama nahilo akoh bigla kso dko na ininda kc late n tlgha, Mgah Pauso kc redhorse pa nang red horse eh. ayan parepareho kaming sabog. hehhehe....

Biglaang inuman nagkayayaan ksi; wala lng, addict ksi ung Teammates koh eh. pag trip cgeh lng... apat samin may pasok pa sa gabi, at ung dalawa nalasing sa sobrang lasing nakatulog nah... Dianne was really drunk that we decide to bring her to the dorm (ginawang school bus ung taxi.buti n lng mabait c manong...)C Doms naiwan sa sala nila Kris pinagsasampal na namin ayaw pa rin gumising kyah naiwan n lng na may sulat pa ng pentel ang mukha courtesy of lucky Hehe!!!...

Pag dating koh ayun bagsak sa kama nkalimutan ko nah magtanggal ng shoes paggising ko hindi koh alam wala na ung shoes koh (Hanggang ngayon hindi koh alam kung pano nangyari un...weirdness tlgah!!!) may bantay atah akoh.... buti n lng shoes lng natanggal sken...(creeeepppppy!!!nyay!!!) ayun diretso CR, Naligo ng malamig na tubig ng magising at mahimasmasan...

Pagpasok koh antok pkoh... Machakit ang uloh ang sarap mang gago ng calls buti n lng mababait ung cx koh; makatiyempo lng akoh ng cx na nagsusungit sa umpisa p lng nko... Ewan koh sa inyoh.

Nalalasahan ko pah ung beer sa dila koh kahit ilang mouthwash at tootbrush ang aking gawin andun pa rin... tuwing didighay akoh nararmdaman ko ung sipa ng pulang kabayo.... hayyy ilang oras n lng out nkoh... itutulog koh toh dhil may OT pakoh mamayang gabi... hayyy ayokoh nah tlgah... mahiga ngah lng akoh for sure tulog akoh kagad... pumepetiks n lng angtagal ko nang nka aux6 transfer sa partners... katamad na magtake ng calls eh...

cgeh nah at ayokoh nah tlgah habang nagsusulat akoh pumipikit na ung mata ko.... ayoko nah... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......

YOCHAN, BURIKI & PAOPEE

2006-11-25T13:41:00.000+08:00

YOCHAN, BURIKI & PAOPEE

hey etoh akoh ngayon.... contemplating bkit kyah? May pag ka weird ang araw na itoh... I just found out nah mommy denise will leave us... Resign na syah waaaahhhh... i just heard the news this morning from her and I felt really sad about it. Pero I'm really proud and happy for her ksi career move toh pra kay mommy and it was really her dream job and she finally have it now.... Elmo also cried about it... Chirauloh toh si Moh' muntik tuloy akoh mapaluha eh...Sooner or later ganun din nman mangyayari smin eh.... Una-unahan lng toh mgah Tsong.... Malay moh sunod nkoh...hehehe... Psssttt.. waka maingay....

Change Topic... Me and some minotaurians went out for breakfast again... C TL tumakas...were suppose to meet Czar there... Nkatakas sa asawa... but she didn't show up..were kind of worried about her because she didn't even inform us. I just told them that whatever it is will find out later.... "Lucky the planner" is now fixing our itenerary for next month... andaming balak...Puerto, EK, Astoria, at kung san san pang pwede nyang maisip.... layas ka tlgang lalake kah nandamay ka pah.... Sabi ko ngah wrote it down on a planner tpos ilistah mo nah ung sasama s hindi sasama!!!! hehhehe...

PAO! PAo! PAO! PAopeeeeee!!!!! hehe ung teammate nming hndi mrunong mgbasa ng email... PAo emailed us nah his going to be monitoring for the next (2)two hours and to utilized our tools so ibig sabhin bwal mang istorbo kc busy akoh!!!! eh ung gaga makulit prang first day ng production pa lng umasta.... prang ala pa ring alam... Hello!!! *lyn.... ilang buwan na ung production nun pero un at un pa rin ung tinatanong... sa inaraw araw mong gnagwa yan hndi mo p bah mamememorize yan.... ay ewan....

Cgeh na ngah YOchan (Crauloh kc c Doms!!!) na lng tyoh... Mgah Buriki (c Czar no show kc, hindi 2loy nlaman kung ano meaning nun!!!) hehhe... mgah terms ng team yan for this week... By the way people... if ever u read this; please go to "you tube" and search "Minotaur Sings" hehe its a scandal....heheheh byeebyeye

Correction!!!

2006-11-24T00:54:00.000+08:00

Correction!!!

I'm not inluv... Atah? Nah Misinterpret ni Maan.... Chirah uloh... Sbi ko s inyo mguloh ang uTak ko ngayon eh. Wag nyoh na bigyan ng Kulay... ngah plah.. Marco dude, Tsong Hapee Bertday!!!

LOSING EVERYTHING

2006-11-23T07:51:00.000+08:00

LOSING EVERYTHING

hehe wala akong mgawa... 2 mins. at auto-in na nman akoh... just had a one-hour call my fault anyway.... i insisted on helping an old lady on updating her win version so she can be able to update msn software. I actually had the same call last monday and it took me 4 hours to finish it. hehehe.... Told yah! my fault... anyweiz... we've been on queueing for the past few days. Fucking Msn didn't even update there cx about updating there software.... Pretty tiring though, I had an OT y'day and i slept on my first sched hehe, I actually went here just to take a nap.... but still I manage to attend my 2nd sched un ngah lng lango nkoh... anyweiz... I seem to be pretty tired this past few days I'm not sure if its the calls that I've been taking or is it something else.... I have to be honest I feel really sick today, i just want to hide it so no one will notice, I just dont want them to feel weird around me, I'm losing my voice everyday its getting worse.... Pero cgeh YOSI! pa anak ng putsa nasukah na atah koh ng dugo lalo na pag nagmumog akoh.

So I'm in denial stage right now.... Bkit kyah... ang bilis koh tlgah mahulog... konting churva lng ayun nah..hmmmm bkit kyah? pero ang bilis koh rin maovercome ung feelings koh...haaayyyy ganito n lng bkoh prati... same old story, same old crap, same old sentiments, lhat n lng parepareho nangyayari, bkit ngah kyah.... ay wala nang sense ang lhat pinagsasabi koh. hindi ko na maintindihan ni sarili koh... ay bkit bah ganito akoh kawindang? WEirdo... I was born to be one cguroh ngah kyah akoh nagkakaganito... basurang buhay kelan ka bah gaganda... HMMMMMMMMMMM... Come to think of it kung gumanda man ang buhay ano pa ang thrill at Challenge ay nkuh.... ano bah?!!! tama nah... tigilan na... out na ngah akoh at bka d ko patoh makaya...

TIME PAST BY SO QUICKLY

2006-11-17T07:55:00.000+08:00

TIME PAST BY SO QUICKLY

I'm feeling tired right now, my tummy is rumbling, I didn't eat anything last night, the last meal I had was probably the burgers from HOTshot and that was like in the morning.. Oh yeah had some coffee too but that's about it....

Yesterday, Me and some of my teammates went out for some meal and it turn out to be a brunch already then had some goofy conversations.... We end up having coffee on starbucks after that and we stayed up until 2" in the afternoon.... I was really tired when I got home that I even forgot to remove my contacts ( I'm going blind!!!) hehehe.... I woke up around 7 pm and just had a tummy ache after that.... Didn't feel like eating anything for dinner eventhough I can smell what Kuya gil is preparing for dinner (binabad na bangus sa suka.... amoy plang sarap nah!!!) I just dont feel like eating anything.... I just started to watch some T.V.

ang sakit ng lalamunan koh.... feeling ko nahawa nkoh sa mgah tao sa paligid koh... lhat clah may skit at ayaw akong tantanan... Hindi nman kmi nag inuman pero feeling koh may hangover ako... nagnunumb buong bibig koh... what's going on? I just don't feel like myself today... Awin thought I had a monthly period kc masyado daw akoh masungit ngayon... I wish I had that; kso ala pa rin....

So 2 of our teammates had been terminated from the acct., One of them was immediately transferred to other acct. Sinumpa tlgah yang be-vocal na yan.... Nkakaawa tlgah ung mgah naterminate... Imagine a new acct., new surroundings, new crowd, everything is new..... Swerte lng clah ksi mas mlaki ang salary nila samin.... UY... gusto ko nah magpalipat ng acct.!!! hehehe...

Terminal break... tinatamad nkoh kumuha ng tawag.... ung last 2 calls binatas koh at log calls pah... hay nku... bad trip tlgah ang mood koh... bashtah bhala na ngah... bka mamayah ok na rin akoh.... cgeh nah bye... hanggang d2 dinadala koh ung kasungitan koh...

THE WEEK THAT WAS

2006-11-13T08:16:00.000+08:00

THE WEEK THAT WAS

My week was pretty much a tiring,restless week..... I started the week going home from Macau; from the airport, I went straight to work, I had like 15 mins. to spare or should I say prepare... I'm schedule to report at work at like 11' in the evening but I'm still in NAIA around 10 pm waiting for my bags.... hehe... told kuya rey to hurry up coz' I need to make it to work "On Time" (not that I'm always on time!)

The flight was a ok, I guess? I almost didn't make it though... I arrived at Sky Pier around 6pm and my flight was scheduled at like 7:40... I'm in the check-in counter when the chinese lady was looking for my ticket... I told her I just had my itenerary because I rebooked my flight and I just need to pay 300$ for the fee. Then she told me that my flight was not confirmed... But then she made some calls and gave me a boarding pass and told me to hurry up coz' there boarding at like 7' I had to like run from airport to bus to airport and then bus again coz my gate is on the other side.... Talk about some hassle... Finally made it then the guy on the boarding gate told me my receipt is still in the process... WTF?!! u guys told me to hurry up then my receipt is still not ready.... guess it's better to be early... But i didn't have the time to roam around the airport since I'm just counting minutes till boarding.... So much for that.... But did u know that Cebu Pacific is having some games like "bring me contest" when were like up in the air..... Pretty weird but didn't care much about that.... I was just enjoying my flight (eventhough its really not...)
Then some of the Filipinos won't even talk to me coz' they thought I was Chinese..... One of the passenger on my flight even told me so.... she told me "Pilipino ka ba ineng...?" sbi Koh "Opo" Then she told me " Kala koh Intsik kah kyah d kita kinakausap kanina eh..." I just smiled and walk away....

Pag dating koh nang bhay... Baba ng maleta...Ayun.. at diretso ulit ng sasakyan pra ihatid sa work...walang hilahilamos..... na feel ko ngah ung alikabok ng EDSA nsa pisngi koh pah....

I haven't had enough sleep since I went back to C shift.... nagigising akoh ng hapon.... actually ginigising akoh...tpos I can't go back to sleep....

Today our Avaya was down from 3 am... I just had 3 calls today...my last one was frustrating enough to make me teary-eyed... talk about a low user cx... with a problem on hearing.... sheeeesshhhh....tlgang Tumulo ang luha koh..... Then Pao was really upset on what's happening on Our team Stats on Absenteeism & aheeeemmm Tardiness.... that we have some changes for the team effective next week.... Haaayyy.... what a week that was.... I would say npakasama nito.... kailangan bumawi.... ewan koh... Tinatamad na ngah akoh.... sa trabaho koh... Buti n lng.. RD ko nah after this.... WEdnesday nakoh papasok.... Sana ngah may mangyaring progress.... GUD lUCK n lng sa aming lhat....

OUR TRIP SO FAR (PART II)

2006-11-07T10:07:00.000+08:00

OUR TRIP SO FAR (PART 2)

Oki part two(2) Here It Goes Again is being played on the background.... etoh na ang part 2 ng npakawlang kwentang pangingibang bansa koh ( no offense!) I know I can't blame anybody......

Last night Ate Sweet & Danny took Seann to the hospital and was admitted and confined.... So, right, the trip is officially over..... Sa aming nalalabing araw d2... I had to be there official guide kso I'm going home tomorrow, I'll prolly just take them back to San Malo and do some shopping.... So this is it.... Last chance to buy something for everyone back home.....I can't even buy my friends bilin..... I'll try to take a look later. Pero feeling koh walang pag-asa eh.... Yaan mo nah....churi guys... Maan, TL, Kavi,Kulot hehehe...khit na ano n lng mkitah koh..... Ei guys u want some chinese delicacies ksi bka un n lng...blast me sa cbox oki.....

ok were going.....mamaya koh n lng toh itutuloy.....

HAhaha!!! we are back nagmadali ang mgah tungak.... gutom na daw clah niyaya koh kumain sa KFC ayaw nilah mgastos lng daw.....Asus!!! I brought them to San Malo tingin sa mgah tiangge duon.... bargain d2 bargain doon.... Bought some shirts on Giordano got a free bag if u purchase 500$ worth of there clothes, tpos I bought myself a chuck..... Whooaoaa..... Buti na lng sale sa Converse I had a 20% off deal.... yesssss..... tpos punti kmi mgah boutiques pa ulit..... wala naman nabili msyadoh..hehehe....pwede na rin ung shopping galore namin..... khit papano.... I might take them also to the Macau Tower tomorrow morning before my flight.... after nun ewan koh clah kung panoh nah...pero bka ok na ung pmangkin koh by that time..... at mka puntah pa clah sa China...... hindi tuloy akoh nkabili ng mgah series......hmmmpppp...better luck next time....

Sbi nilah punta daw kmi Sam-Sam (aka. 10$ store) andami kc pwede mbili psalubong dun eh.... kso ang mgah itoh pgkatpos kumain hala gsto nlang manood ng movie.... mgah tamad.... Nangibang bnsa pra manood ng DVD......

Bsta ang alam koh nabili koh na lhat ng kailangan koh...bhala na c Batman bukas.... Babooo....COz' I have to pack up my stuff........

OUR TRIP SO FAR

2006-11-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

OUR TRIP SO FAR

Well Ok, I think I was warned about not going in this trip; It's been.... how can I say this..ummmm utterly boring.... Well its started when we arrive..... It's not quite what I expected it to be.... I thought were going to have a blast out here; but It's totally the opposite of the latter. My nephew Seann was and still sick and caught some kind of a virus while there still in Manila..... So our whole itenerary pretty much went out of the window.

Yesterday, were supposed to go to Hongkong for some shopping galore and Disneyland of course! But instead we end up staying indoors while waiting for my sister to decide if were going or not.... We end up leaving in the afternoon and went to San Malo instead and bought some clothes on "Green Door", Then we went to "Ruins Of St. Paul and I end up being there tour guide since we had to go "50" stairway steps before reaching the actual site (I'm not really sure if its fifty, but its really a longway up.) and my sister and brother in-law is incapable of doing so because of my nephew being sick......Then I had to take the freaking bus home with my Aunt since were not going to fit in the car;And let me tell you this, People in Macau still haven't heard of deodorant.....Oh bOy they do smell....wooooohhhhh....they smell reeeeealllllllly baaaaaddd....... cant even begin to describe it....... i just know its bad....

Today we end up staying at home and doing nothing..... I just feel bad that we had to.... It's my bros 1st time here and they do feel bored I have to tell yah..... I just had to ask Ate that I want to go down for a walk to smell some fresh dusty air...... Me and KUya Ton went for a long walk on the streets of Taipa so he can go out...... Kuya Ton gets bored easily and he even wants to take an early flight with me on Wednesday...... Me and Kuya Gil just scold him because Ate my get offended when he would insist on going home early. But he is just tooo stubborn..... His like my dad a big stubborn jerk..... good thing he was born in this world to be my brother or else I might end up kicking him up to the curve...shhhheeeesssshhhh.......

Yeah I do feel bad for them but it's nobody fault anyways....I mean, Ate would want them as much as possible to have some fun and tour around Macau and Hongkong but she is still MUM and my nephew's health comes first in this matter..... It's just too bad' Its gotta happen this time.......

Well for me, I had to extend my flight until wednesday so I can accompany them around since I partially know the place already...... I just hope I can report for work on time on Wednesday..... cause my flight is arriving pretty late...... well so much for this trip..... I have to go out of my way and think of something thats going to make them enjoy this trip better....... Wish me luck.

OBSTACLES FOR MY TRIP

2006-10-31T16:06:00.000+08:00

OBSTACLES FOR MY TRIP

oi.... bkit ganun? ano ba naman ito? hindi bah tlgah akoh pwede umalis? pra ksing nanadya ang panahon at mgah taoh sa tabi tabi eh..... Minsan lng naman kso ayaw pa rin.

So ganitoh ksi un... May pasaway nah hindi nagsabi na absent syah khapon. tpos ngayon nag halfday pah ng walang paalam.... Eh Panoh pko nito next week kung sobrang taas na ng absenteeism namin.hehehe....

sandali may call akoh...

Ok I'm back petiks munah... I had a call; his getting error 41 everytime he signed in on the msn software; Tanong koh Pao "what's error 41?" msn messenger problem then transfer to partners; I was answered by max from MSN Partners.... grabe humingah...isn't he aware that his breathing bothers us... As in parang DRAGON kung humingah...eh kadiri....

Ok back to the topic soh ganun na ngah.... Ay ewan bkit msayado ba kong bothered eh.... Dko naman kasalanan...

I ask HAzim to create a scroll for my bloginess hehehe... ksi ung pix ko umabot na sa dulo... indi na mkitah ung Cbox...But daddy I would also like to keep my balls. hehehehehe.....

This might be like the weirdest call ever;So cx was having problems with a certain website so I thought its just a problem on the cx browser, then I found out that his trying to access the adult friend finder....Hhhhhhmmmmm? doesn't ring any bells... what is it? I tried to take a look at it and WHOOOOOOAAAA its like a swinger/dating site where you can post nude pics of yourself if u want to find a date!!!! WTF?!!!! and he has the guts to complain about it and call tech support..... OMG!!! ssshheeeeessshhh....
Those crazy people can't get enough of there DSL...... have some pride... it's already 1am on ur time.... get some sleep..... hehehe....

Its Oct.31 today It's really a family tradition on every Filipino family to spend the night on the cementery to visit there loved ones graveyard.... well for me I had to go straight to Himlayan and Golden Haven after work... hehhehe...no sleep tonight for mwahhhh.... bka kc mabisistah akoh nila uncle eh..... tsaka bka magtampo ung mgah pinsan koh..... hay walang tulog...

C TL gusto kming mag costume bkas khit hat lng daw or something...Huss kaartehan... chige na ngah..bka d pkoh pyagan eh... Hmmm hahanapin koh n lng ung scream mask ni kuay tsaka ung coat nun hehehe.... kakulitan dbah.... Bstah aun poh..... bye..bye...

Trick or Treat!!!!

TRIP KO TO (PART II)

2006-10-29T13:38:00.000+08:00

TRIP KO TOH (PART 2)

weeeheee..... tuloy nakoh....2loy na tuloy..... weeeeeeeeee!!!!!!......I already bought my ticket so there's no thing that can stop me now....Ewan koh bah I've been in that place for like 4 times already just this year alone peroh bkit gusto koh bmalik....cguroh its not the place but the company I'm going to go with..... I already talked to TL sbi nyah chikret lng daw nmin proh oki lng...... Kso there's 2 more obstacles that I have to face.....Well its really not that hard... I think?..... Ung unah I have to think of a reason kung bakit akoh aabsent ng 2 days sa work.....Hello Ma'am Yvette; Workforce!!! Tpos ung isa pah I have to talked to the team prah mging below 5 percent kmi next week khit aabsent akoh for 2 days... Ibig sbhin kailangan koh makiusap nah huwag clah umabasent dhil aabsent akoh..... prang pangit pakinggan peroh..... un na ngah un..... I have to say the right words prah maintindhan nman nilah.......... Ewan koh prang dalawang araw lng nman ung absent koh pero its such a big deal...... Parang ang laking impact pero kung sa tutuusin kulang pa ngah un...actually uuwi na ngah akoh nun ng maaga eh....... Guys sana maintindhan.......Fellow Minotaurians......please bare with me..... Actually ayokoh ngah ipaalam s knila na aalis akoh...KC it's really something selfish....... I know it for a fact.....

Minsan k lng nman mgiging selfish dbah......... Nkikitah ko nah ang pagmumukha nilang lhat once na nkausap koh clah......... I neeeeeedddddd to take a deep breath bgo koh clah harapin.......... Kyah koh toh...... nakumbinsi koh nman c TL eh........ I think i still have a will power to make them understand........ Whatever it is..... Kyah KOh toh!!!!! bababbbaaayyyyyy!!!!!! Hey Maan, Kavi U guys want anything for pasalubong?

TRIP KO TO!

2006-10-24T16:46:00.000+08:00

TRIP KO TOH

soh bkit gnitoh.... ayaw...indi puwede...bkit kyah? hmmmm... sana wag kang mgagalit kung gagawin ko toh ha... plssss... kailangan lng tlgah... I need to come with my family.... I hafta to do this... I haven't had any absenteeism since core skills (late madami....waaaahhhh!!!!) kyah cguroh ayaw akoh pyagan ni TL alam ko naman na d tlgah pwede.... isang araw lng nman eh.... PLssssss.....

I just found out that Kuya ton is also going to Macau on Nov.4 there all going to disneyland and I want to come....erase that.... I NEEEEEEEDDD to come.... WAAAAAAAhhhhhh!!! I really Want to....I don't want to miss it.... and its going to be the last time I might be able to go to Macau... coz' Sis is going back to Australia by the end of Nov.

I actually told ateh about it and she was happy that I'm going to come but I told her its not definite yet......waaaahhhhh..... bkit ganon dati I can go wherever I want; ngayon.... I feel like I have to ask permission from Mike Henderson himself so I can get just one absent......hehehe.... joke lng... nakakainis lng when u hafta' follow the rules.... medyo indi lng mganda ang dating.... I feel so left out....when it comes to family affairs... nkakainis naman kc....bkit bah may gnyang rules... Tatangah kc akoh papasok akoh d2 tpos rereklamo koh rin plah... pero cno bang tao ang walang reklamo..... waaaahhhh... nkakainis lng kc tlgah..... wala nkong mgawa.....

OKi... so ganito n lng.... wag kyoh maingay ha!!!! sssssshhhhhhhhhhhhh...... may balak akoh.... kung magpasuspend na lng kya akoh.... Hmmmmmmmm..... sandali masyadong masama..... nkakainis.... tlgah.... gusto koh tlgha sumamama!!!! Friends & Foes I need ur advice regarding this one..... I'll die if I would miss this (medyo OA! pero ganun na rin ung feeling nun...) huhuhuhu!!!!

Akoh lng mag-isa s bhay.... magmumukmok sa kwartoh.... maiiwang mag-isa.... sandali hindi na masama un..... I'll have the house all to myself...... yipeeeee...... Waaaaaaaahhhhh.... hindi pa rin... kc hbang nagsasaya clah akoh mag-isa magmumokmok.......hindi toh pwede..... bsta sasama akoh...... magalit na ang magalit.....(sandali hindi koh kaya un!) Nababaliw nkoh.....

Ok I'll figure this one out.... sana lng dinadasal koh sa butihing Maykapal ng Workforce.... nah wag munah palitan ang schedule namin for next week... parah.... makaalis akoh sa weekend.....khit weekend habol na lng akoh ng flight pbalik..... d na masama un dbah....hmmmppppp.... isang araw sa Macau.... kulang un... pangshopping koh lng un eh.....haaaaayyyyy..... bsta... Sis malalaman nyoh n lng eventually .... Bka abutin nkoh sa psychiatric WArd nitoh.... nkakainis naman tlgah eh.... cgeh babay.... tama nah sentimiyento koh....
HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU!!!!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!

UPDATE TIME

2006-10-20T13:02:00.000+08:00

update time!!!!!

sheeettttttt..... just got the next week schedule were still stuck on the same shift!!!! hindi ba nila naririnig ang hinaing namin....... na ayaw namin sa gnitong shift..... kainis tlgah....... nakairita nah......bkit ba ayaw palitan..... tpos khapon hindi nag alarm ung cell koh kyah d akoh nka pag OT kainis tlgah.... kailangan ko pa atah mag RD OT para mkakuha akoh ng dati kong sweldo...... oki enough of that ksi khit na anong entry koh cguroh dito hindi pa rin nila babaguhin ung sched nmin..... hmmmppppp....

soh oki ang tgal koh nah gsto magupdate.... just got busy.... welll actually tinatamad lng akoh..... our team stats ang baba lalo na pagdating sa BU; imagine I got 30 mins as my Aht the other day.... that pretty much sucks.... imagine the amount of calls im getting on 1 shift then the time I have to talked to them.....thats pretty much how u compute your call time..... dagdag mo pah ang high avail time namin.... kyah sino ba namn hindi masusukah sa sched natoh..... hindi na ngah kmi halos nag acw dhil gusto naming kumuha ng calls pag may queue.... Imagine how ironic na gusto namin ng calls if we cant get one.... before when I was on night shift iniiwasan nmin ung mgah queueing ksi nakkapgod.... but now we embrace it with open arms (naks!!!)...... c maan parang gago (gaga daw sbi nyah eh..) mamaya mo na toh basahin pag kumpleto nah.... wag ka tumawa... at hindi akoh matsungit!!!!!

Oki so were iritated we'd someone right now..... and we pretty much hate everything that person does ung bang barado na kagad.... gsto koh na tlgah un kausapin pra matapos na toh...... Sobrang hangin... wala naman sa lugar... hello parepareho lng naman tyo ng trabaho kyah magtigil kah.... so what kung na solve moh.... hindi mo nah kailangan ipagmalaki ksi araw araw mo yan ginagwa.... hehe joke... ang sama koh noh... nakakairitah na ksi... before its so tolerable... pro ngaun Nakakabanas.....hayyyyyy.......

ngah plah nasira ung blog koh last week..... c hazim nag panic..... nagulat n lng kmi ni maan kung anoh na ung pinagsasabi..... peroh thanx for restoring may blog maan...... cgeh na nagh thanx na rin kay hazimeister......yan ha!!!!

our october chorva update!!!! Nangungunah ang yellow team!!!!!woohoooo......talo lng kmi AHT!!!! pero thats 25%...... the other 75% its fine...... Go Downy Yellow!!!! Maghuhugas ng pinggan ang Enervon Red at Snacku Green!!!!! hehehe.... joke lng nagkakapersonalan na ngah eh..... Haven't read Pao's new entry peroh sbi nyah basahin ko daw kc he likes a new person right now ( sure kang tao yan ha!) and his over "K" hmmmmmmm...... tlgah TL ha! cgeh gwapo ka naman ngayon eh.......

so un lng poh... babbabababababay!!!! *Amoy baby.....amoy baby.....

Ang DRagon, Kalangitan, Si Tarzan, Ang mga Unggoy at Ang Embutidong Silver

2006-10-15T09:33:00.000+08:00

Ang DRagon, Kalangitan, Si Tarzan, Ang mga Unggoy at Ang Embutidong Silver

haaaaayyy..... ang sarap magpahingah lalo pag weekends kc mas mhaba ang oras...... I get to spend time with my family and speaking of family today is kuya's 26th bday!!! Happy birthday kuyas!!! Mawawala na kyoh sa Kalendaryoh....wehehehe......

So mdyoh kakaibah ang nagyari since I last updated..... We were assigned to new AM group (snukah n kmi ni Bamie....hehehe..) soh pareho n kmi ng AM nila kavi,maan at daddy alec which is gooooooooddd.....tpos ang office ngayon may dragon, nandon c tarzan,may mgah unggoy na ung iba nkalipstick pa atah.., andaming hot-air balloon, may mgah ahas sa dingding, embutidong kulay silver (sbi ni pao..),may kumot sa ceiling ewan koh kung naisip nilah nah walang star pag-araw..... at kung anu ano pang ewan ko kung nkakatulong ba yun sa pag-take namin ng calls......inspiration b yan?.....kc everytime na papasok akoh naguguluhan akoh kung nsa jungle bkoh oh nsa kalangitan......pero bkit may dragon? chinese new year na bah?!! hehhehe..... dalawang linggo na clang gumagawa nyan hanggang ngayon wala pa ring mbgay n pliwanag ang mgah tao sa plagid koh cguroh nawiwindang din clah tulad koh........

So c kulot....nangungulit...nood daw kmi ng pulse.....sbi ko naman alah c maan nauwi ng bulacan... tinext c maan khapon pinipilit; nood daw ng pulse....tpos sbi skin ni maan khit kming dalawa n lng daw eh..sorry chris kc b-day ni kuyah ngayon.....I have plans for today.....kso pag sa monday hanggang 5 lng atah ung last na showing ng pulse.......bhala nah....bka pwede ng patyagaan ung pirated na DVD........

Hay nakuh.... putsang A shift yan ayaw akong tantanan......mabait naman akong agent paminsan-minsan..... pero bkit im still stuck in this shift?!!!.....grabeh as in sobrang boring ng shift na toh......parang kalahating araw lng akoh nagtratrabaho tpos ung klahati kailangan m lng umupo.......at mag gaguhan......tpos they expect us to behave.... panoh... ung mgah bossing na ikot pag shift namin..... kung kelan wala ng calls dun bwal mag ingay......EWAN koh s inyoh.....
Maan got caught using meebo by our Acct director..... putsah dude acct.director...lufet tlgah..... lagot ka kay OZ.......joke lng poh *peace.......

oh yan may update nah.....babay ulit.....

THE DR. IS DOWN

2006-10-11T04:52:00.000+08:00

THE DR. IS DOWN

Ayokoh ng ganitong shift koh....basurah.... ung bang papasok kah paglbas moh parehong araw pa rin...nyeekkk...nakatamad...nakkaurat....nakakbadtrip...lhat na ng masamang kaka andito na sa shift na toh... imagine were the last few people na nanditoh sa floor....tpos...weird pa ung mgah calls ksi pagabi na un sa states......I like to go back to my night shift and I miss mY PC and my view of Papa QA although may view naman khit papaano dun sa kinaupuan koh khapon...pero hindi pa rin; I'm so stressed pag ganito.... nakaaway ko ngah ang business office dhil sa shift na toh...mgah crauloh... and to think there the one's who handle customer service.......nakuh!!!! they will feel my wrath eventually...... nakakagigil!!!!!

First three calls koh p lng weird nah panoh? Na gago na clah ng ibang agent....eh nung night shift; kmi ung unang gagago sa knila eh...tsaka fresh pa ung mgah utak nilah d ktulad nung patulog na clah pero gsto p nilang ipa activate ung dsl nilah...ay ewan....tpos ung mgah ka teammates koh....nagugulantang skin kc naririnig nilang nagsusungit akoh sa B.O..... hindi daw nilah akalain na pala away akoh wala daw sa *angelic face koh.....hehehe..nice one!!!!

Were suppose to watch pulse khapon kso ngah ung mgah ksama koh may pagka weirdness..... kyah we decided na wag n lng ituloy...... Tsaka I'm so wasted yesterday...hirap pa humanap ng taxi pauwi.....Ewan koh kung tuloy ngayon..... I like to watch a movie pero bka d nila kayanin.... cgeh sa RD na lng mgah dude!!!

hey thanks philippe for linking me in your bloginess... So gotta go...have to take a bath now..need to go to work early bka may pagasang walng nkapuwesto sa PC namin ni maan... Sorry TL ayokoh tlgah sa puwesto koh dun... naiingayan clah sa kin... nasigaw kc akoh... c Maan ngah lng nkakatiis sa boses koh...

Babay ulit!!!!

ADDICTION

2006-10-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

ADDICTION

As usual the sunday night shift is a bore...No calls; No agents;No calls; Avail; It takes you thirty minutes to get another call.... The goddamn floor is a freaking ghost town.... hehe... well we dont actually seen ghost or any unexplainable entity...(nyaaayyy!!!! huwag naman sanah!!!)pwede ka ngah magtakbuhan pag sunday eh....

Kakaupdate ko lng knina eh...ayokoh pa sana kc bka maubusan akoh ng entry for next time.... hehe...weird ng calls koh.... its either madali na walang problema naman tlgah ung cx...ung katangahan lng bah ung pinapairal!!!! or something nah unsupported....hehe mgah weird callers na isisi pa rin sa Qwest ung problema khit alam naman nilah na ung computer nila ung may CRAh!!! mgah walang mgawa sa mundo......

putsa may seat plan na kmi....hindi nkoh pwede pumuwesto sa kinauupuan koh ngayon... gsto ko pa naman tong pwestoh koh kc may site akong nkikitah.... hehehe... tsaka ung PC koh akoh lng yung sinusunod nitoh..... wala na ngah atang mkalog-in ditoh eh.... naiinis na ngah ung mgah kagrupo tsaka c TL eh kc an layo ko daw s knila.....

Absent c KAvi basurang babae toh oh.... umabsent na naman.... lagot ka kay OZ....present ngayun.... RD naman ni MAan.. dude u guys left me here with Flower and RR and there creeping me out..... joke lng.... Flower keeps on staring on guys butt; everytime one will past by..... RR is singing diff. genres hehe.... weirdo....

Just Got off with a caller hehe...new install da best toh... trained and authenticated na c customer.... walang problema....ngayon koh nalamn meron na plang Quickcare sa quick Connect CD; basura!!! tpos gusto pa smin ipaquote un.... Panira ng AHT kc; tpos kung tangah pa ung gustong magdownload nun... ay bukas p kyoh matatapos......

I called helpdesk earlier talked to andy...hehe..sabi nyah kung galit daw b akoh kc ang lakas daw ng boses koh... hehehe.. kc naman walang tao kyah sarap sumigaw; nagtagalog kmi.... ang lakas ng loob wala ksing QA ngayon.....nawindang sa tanong koh...nag native WFA-C pah d naman na solve ung problema koh.... tapos sabi nyah Native Wfa-C lng daw ntatakot akoh... hehe... hindi nkita ung cable ni cx....yabang ksi sinayang lng oras koh... pero joke lng sir... hope to talk to u soon mamaya cguroh ulit...hehehe.....I'll give u an "A" for effort....

TL PAo is not mad at me.... Sabi nyah lng huwag n daw malalate ulit.... sabi ko kc mat skit akoh nun eh.... pero his mad on "Aiza" tsaka ung buong team kc.... Hindi koh alam ang layo koh ksi sa knila eh.....di akoh updated....

Got a call from this weird lady.... sabi nyah I-hold ko daw syah pra bumalik syah sa dting agent... nagapologize akoh sbi koh it doesn't work that way and we can't give away our calls....at least she gave me the no. then review her customer history..but she keeps on insisting that to be put on hold...crah uloh..tpos she released the call.... I track down the cuid of the last ticket....
hehe...tinanong napindot plah nyah transfer button imbis na hold.... basurang agent....ngayon kausap ko syah sa email at kami ay nagchichikahan nah.....

so un lng mdyoh mhaba na ang entry koh at hindi pkoh naglulunch..... it took me four hours to write this.....istorbong calls.....
babay!!!!!

UPDATE

2006-10-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

UPDATE

have to update this thing already.....lot of changes happened this week...

First thing that happened while I was on break from work.... I was sleeping and I woke up..... checked my CP... 2 messages; from maan.... first would be the message that made me jump out of bed; I panic.... hate this message....went online just to talk to her no answer......talked to chris...still nothing....kavi????....whoever i can get a hold off so I can confirm what maan text me.....OUr freaking scheduled changed from evening to morning!!!!! From having hazard pay to going back to our basic pay with no allowance and no night diff.....sheessshhhhh...... REALLY HATE IT!!!!

But ok!!! so its fine.... I guess, now have a chance to have a normal(morning!) life hehe...That's maan's point of view.....hehehe... dont really buy it.. if u asked me....

ITS OKTOBERFEST!!!!! YEAH!!! our team is planning to go next weekend..... yeah.. masayah etoh.... OKi.... I hope I can come.... because we have kuya's girlfriend arriving tonight and I think bro' expect me to come with them wherever they go.... ALALAY itoh!!!! My kuya's b-day is on sunday..... nku poh may makukulit na namang tao sa bhay nitoh..... I think our place is gonne get trash again.... oki lng its kUYa's today so I might be able to tolerate it..... HAPPY B-DAY BROthers!!!!!

My nephew Clark has been in and out of the hospital for couple of weeks now... poor baby... was thinking of getting him a MEdicard.... I asked Mama to inquire about it and i'll just pay for it....Bait ko noh... basura... kc naman ung nanay nyah masyadong pabaya.... inuuwi sa malabon tpos d naman kyah alagaan... as soon as my nephew gets better she's not allowed to bring Clark to Malabon.....

hehe.... putsa antok akoh ngayon.... wala akong tulog... WHY?.... natuloy na ksi ung pagpunta namin Golden Haven to celebrate my uNcle's death Anniv..... my cousin told aheeemmmmm... they miss mwahhhh..... hehe touch akoh.... I miss you guys too.....

well that's it... about to end my shift.... for today... freraking tired already... I think Pso is mad at me and were going to have a talk again about my Late... I was late for three times last cut-off... 2 of them happened when I was sick last week... I know its not a reason no matter.... I guess I'll be suspended... my fault anyway.... haaaayyyyy.....

bye...chow...

CHANGES

2006-10-05T15:22:00.000+08:00

CHANGES

honestly ang sarap ng pahinga..... ung bang pagising mo hindi ka titingin sa cellphone mo kung anong oras nah o kayah naman mapaparanoid ka ksi bka late knah at nasobrahan kna sa tulog....
Ganun kc akoh pag may sched eh..... ung bang feeling ko kulang pa ung tulog pero kailangan bumangon dahil sasagot lng ako ng tawag...... BASURAH!!!!

Honestly I have no complains maswerte pa ngah akong matatawag kc i've easily adjusted on my work, I dont really fit-in on a fast pace basis.... usually i would be a loner for quite sometime bago ako mkahanap ng grupong sasamahan..... cguroh time really has change or maybe I have changed through time.......

Naninibago ngah rin akoh sa sarili koh....... Cguroh hindi ko lng napansin nah ganito na plah akoh ngayon...... before i would rather rot in a corner kaysa makipagusap sa isang tao o kyah namn sa crush koh..... Ngayon parang wala lng...... hindi ko na ngah alam kung san koh kinukuha ung kapal ng apog koh..... Like tell me what to do and I'll do it in a heartbeat.....lalo na cguroh if I'm on a tRipped Mode (Astig may MOde!!!)..... Dati I hate people who are so tactless...... ngayon I'm one of them.... haayyyyyyy..... sana If I would change sana its for the better...... feeling koh kc ang sama koh nah.... Pero I know I'm still in control of who I am right now and who I'm going to be ten years from now....... Sana lng I would have the strength to hold on to that control....... I hope that I wont lose myself in the process.......

EWAN KOH!!!!! WAG nYOH KOH TANUNGIN KUNG BkIT GnITOH Ang ENtRY KOH.......
Bsta lng nagsusulat akoh tpos napuntah dito........Tinuloy koh n lng........Sayang Ksi bka may mapagtawanan akoh bukas pag nabasa koh......hehehe....

I read my cousin audre's blog on friendster..... Golly that kid is in so much anxiety right now...... He's even talking about cutting his wrist or something because of certain complications on his life....... Dont even know what to comment........ I usually know what to say when someone's asking for my advice...... Maybe I just dont really know what his going through.........

I need to recover from all this drama...... Haven't had a rest for two weeks maybe thats the reason I'm having so much thoughts right now.....WEIRD!!!!! When there's time to relax I can't even do it.......

SO SICK

2006-10-03T10:28:00.000+08:00

SO SICK

*cough...... uhhmmmm......

i've been sick this past few days..... got a runny nose and everytime I'm taking a call; I had to press the freaking mute just to sneeze (Ah.......Chooo!!!!!)....... I can't even take the day off coz' our team took our abscences to the maximum level last week..... I dont want Pao to stress out anymore..... He's been through enough already......... i don't even want to look at him when his stressing out; I feel like, if I wont report for work then he'll be on his desk grumping about it.......hehe...peace TL!!!! Seriously I really want to take at least a day off.... My friends would even tell me to do so but i would just tell them that I CANT!!! I'm feeling better now....(*keeping my fingers crossed..) I hope......got one more day to work then I will have my rest day........finally.......

So we finally watched step Up last saturday i think? right after the storm hehe....... Me,maan and Daddy alec went to megamall....hehe..mgah lyas na batah kakatapos lng bagyo nood kgad sine....... It was a really good movie when ur just looking at Tyler...haaaaayyyyyy.... Makalaglag panty talagah....... as in.....ang galing pa sumayaw nung lalalking un.....WTF?!!! maan told me HE'S GAY!!!! Putsa lhat na lng ng poging lalaki who you'd think who'd be a perfect catch meron pa ring diperensyah..... KAINIS!!! Still Don't care he's perfect for me even though he's gay..... I LOVE GAYS!!!! heheheh... CONFUSED!!!!! i'm Back?!!!! hindi noh........ pero ha! ang galing nung Da moves dun!!! As in astig tlgah..... i even download the song of Ciara and Nora's bFF song on the bar where there dancing ....me and maan who'd even dance into it on the floor...... mgah sabog!!!! then Pao would join......hehehe...SABOG na SABOG!!!!!!

it was really a fun week eventhough disaster strikes our country....... as in ung bagyo parang hurricane Katrina Filipino version........ but i think matibay naman ung bubong namin kyah lng may mgah minalas na ibah...... nkitah koh sa lbas namin ung mgah tambay namumulot na ng bubong tawa pah ng tawa..... Mgah SABOG!!!!!! Grabeh my brothers has to give me a ride so i can just report for work and when we past through Gilmore st. in New Manila grabeh may mgah nagtrotroso na ng magh punong nakaharang sa daan.........

C Dom tsaka C Czar sbi kamukha daw ni yachang ung crush koh......CRAuloh tlgah un.... Ngayon tuloy pag nkitah ko un maiisip koh C YaChang....... basura sbi ni TL!!!!!!!

CHow people......alam koh sbi ni chris ayaw daw nyah nang narrative na entry he wants something poetic...... pakelam ko syoh....... mag poetry kah hanggat gusto moh...... cge bye guys.......

THE OT THAT WAS NOT

2006-09-27T05:42:00.000+08:00

THE OVERTIME THAT WAS NOT

update time..... nakakahawa tong c maan eh....
so it was supposed to be my restday but i filed an OT (Sakim akoh sa pera....sabi ni maan ibahin ko daw ung term "highly motivated by money!!!" wtf mas gusto koh ung tgalog version eh... paki moh!!!)

my mom came in my room to wake me up because its already 10 pm she thought i had to be at work that time i told her im going to work but for an OT and i was scheduled at 11', she told me to get up and prepare....but i just cant... in short... ANTOK PKOH!!!

finally got up at 12' made a 30 min. bath then off to work (I did get dressed just dont want to have in the full details!!!) got in at 1'ish... log in and i'm having lunch right now..... still tired... my eyes are getting heavier by the minute... i'm supposed to be out by 8ish.......hmmmmm.... still 8 minutes till auto in and im going to wait for calls again.... bleeeeechhhhhh.....
earl is looking on what im writing write now..... hehehe.... dont know.... he ask me why he was input on my entry....

so we have to go to Golden Haven on Saturday its my Uncle Dodoy's death anniversary.... don't think i can make it but i will not missed it... dont want to risk, getting a visit from my sweet Uncle...nyaaayyy!!! uncle doy' peace!!!! and i've already miss a lot of family gatherings since i started working.... I dont want my cousin to make tampo.....

Oh yeah!!! PLDT has an outage haven't had any phone or dsl service for three days now.... i told my mom to ask for reimbursement and be irate about it.....hehehe... i now know how a cx feels when we told them that there's an outage and its going to be fixed on 24 to 48 hrs.... its a real inconvenience for the cx..... fuck!! karma atah akoh...... and my brother keeps on asking what is an outage?!!! hehehe... sorry bro... no counter strike for you.... 3 days straighht never thought you'd survive.....dont commit suicide kuyah!!!!hehehe....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my Dragon sister...ATE JOJIE ilove you sis.... miss ka na namin... wla ng nasigaw sa amin.....
bwahahaha...

byebye....

REVELATIONS

2006-09-24T11:42:00.000+08:00

REVELATIONS

so i'm tired... just got home.... ate breakfast..... and I'm about to zzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........
just want to update again... hehe.... ADDICT!!!!

So I have a revelation i just don't want anybody to know yet, not even my CC Buddies i need to analyze something first........ I do have a crush on somebody and its not someone you would think i would feel like this for..... It made me realize something when maan and I were talking while waiting for her freaking order...... She said why would she have to feel for someone who is totally unattractive physically and i answered her with.... yEah it does happen sometimes u tend to fall for someone who's opposite to what u really like....."Do opposites really attract?!!!" Coz' I'm not supposed to have this certain attraction to somebody but I am.....HMMMmmmmmm......

So it's a juicy one......... My CC buddies will go gaga once they've read this one........ i'll tell yah'..... this one's definitely not CONFUSED...... Sorry can't reveal it yet because it just might be nothing...... I want to change my mind on posting this one.....hehe arte!!!! Kalandian..... Bsta people it's NOTHING...people IGNORE it!!! mwahhh.....

NEW LAYOUT

2006-09-24T05:30:00.000+08:00

NEW LAYOUT

hehe!!! new layout...thanks maan...

I think I have to update this thing since i got a new layout....better than my other crap one that's for sure!!!
got a Tagboard also haha!!!! so give me a comments or whatever you like to say....

So im taking a call right now while trying to post something....
hehe...wait a minute my acw is running... gotta go....

ok so im back... doing my ticket heheh....kinda loopy right now..... TL PAO told me i might be suspended and i think his having problems about it.... the reason... im freaking late.... yeap that's me.... i had another break after my lunch but i had two calls already before i took it.... yeah so im going to be suspended (or i might?!!!) and karl also scold me about it... its happening again im trying to disappoint people around me regarding my hobby..... I can't say they didn't warn me about it...first job got suspended.... that's a new record for me hehehhehe..... but its not funny its really serious i mean im not really concern about the suspension but im concern about my TL coz' his head is on the chopping block once that really happened, his doing everything to back me up and i think his going to get in trouble for it...

change topic... so maan's really down right now.... Two guys (just 2!!!!) are making her life pretty much complicated right now and she's not in the mood to have some fun and EAT!!! yup you heard me righht maan doesn't have the guts to EATTTT!!!!
she didn't even finish her meal this morning...poor girl...guys san na ba ung prinsipe ni maan pra matanggal ang dinadamdam nyah ngayon.....

as for chris.... nsabihan atah ni dar2 na clingy syah....kati namn ang hilig mangulit cnabihan ka na namin eh.... dude all you need is confidence tatak mo yan sa utak moh!!! maraming salamt sa testi.... na touch akoh..

hehe ngayon koh lng ntapos ung call koh i was overtime ng 20 mins but its oki.....worthwhile naman i had two supp calls astig akoh ngayon....may araw din ung mgah un.....

yun lng poh chow s lhat....mganda na ang layout koh...wooot..woot!!!!

INSOMNIA

2006-09-14T17:54:00.000+08:00

INSOMNIA

I cant sleep!!!! I dont know why... maybe I slept too much the other day... I thought I would be able to take a 4 hour nap b4 I go to work because I did some laundry and im exhausted... when I lay on the bed I thought that would be it... I would be like zzzzzzzz... but nope I'm still wide awake but still exhausted and I don't know whats wrong!!! I tried to turn off the tv coz' that might be the reason but its already 6 pm and I have to wake up at 8 pm to prepare myself for work... Fucking eyes!!! It wont close!!! So I think its been ten days since I had my last post so I just decided to update...

Well I've had a boring life this past few weeks... no gossip, no confusedness, no drama, nothing just a boring daily life... my shift turned into night again so thats a big adjustment but I like that better than my old one... hehe...

So that's it no details because I've got nothing to spill.... bye!!!

LIFE GOES ON

2006-09-02T19:18:00.000+08:00

LIFE GOES ON...

Putsah talagah!!! bkit ang hirap mag assess ng tao noh?!!! i have a so called thing write now (itago n lng natin sa pangalang problema or problem....) and its not really something i should be worried about...i think????....hmmmm...

i think may umaaligid na taoh sa pligid at hndi koh alam kung malinis ang knilang intensyon sa pgiging close sken.......bkit kyah?!!!! mabilis tlgah akoh magduda lalo na ung mgah mukha plang hindi trustworthy (ay!!! ang sama nung term koh!!! hehe!!!).........ewan koh bah inignore ko ngah lng at isinasarili ung mgah facts kc akoh lng naman atah ung nkakapansin nun.....paranoid kc ang twag dun at 1 akoh s mgah kasapi nang samahang itoh.....weird tlgah akoh knina pkoh freaky npansin na ngah ni mommy denise eh......and i think i know the cause of it......

putsah change topic tyoh...... ayokoh ng mgah freaks and freaky eh........
alam koh its the same... hehe....lost for words ba itoh.....ummmm.....ummm....fillers?!!!!

peroh hndi ngah i just have intuitions right now that i just need to keep to myself......pra ksing ang gago eh.....bkit kc ang bilis koh mkapansin ng ganito tpos mgah tkot din naman plah ituloy......parang hindi toh change topic ah!!!

putsah tama na toh...... gagawa pkoh written reprimand kc putsah natong habit koh.......este skit n plah toh......nabhala ngah c TL PAO nung nbasa ung mga testi s friendster koh well known daw plah akoh s pgiging late hehe...... ang skit na ng uloh nun skin.....kyah hindi akoh mkaabsent eh.....putsa simula atah core skills ala pkong absent wow 2 months straight un.......never pa nangyari un...... i need to changed that habit......pano kyah katamad kc pumasok ng ganoong oras eh......biro moh alas kwatro ng umagah naglalakad ka s kalye!!!! para tuloy akong pok2 nun kayah sa taxi p lng nkasuot na ung id koh eh....... sbi ngah nung isang manong driver (dun ksi nyah koh pinick-up sa bus station sa baba namin......) "Mam galing po b kyoh probinsyah?" sbi koh "Hndi poh......" pano b naman hndi itatanong un skin mkha akong gling daw baguio kc may dala daw akong jacket..... c manong sabog.......kainis!!!!!

and ung issue koh nung isang araw alah nah..... kso mdyoh hndi ko nah pinapnsin ung QA di n k2lad ng dati..... katakot magbiro nahihiya pa rin tlgah akoh.....etoh pah ung grade koh at metrics koh nbagoh.....haaaaayyyyy.....bstah tpos n yan...feeling ko ngah pinaguusapan akoh nung mgah QA minsan kc nkatingin clah sken.....hndi namn cguroh.....wag naman sana..... bstah manonood na lng munah akoh ng tv ang tagal ko nang hndi updated sa mgah plabas as in for the first wala akong gana manood ng tv.........putsang trbaho toh nalilihis ang lndas ko sa mgah plabas.......
cgeh nah mdyoh mhabah ntong entry koh....tilll my next post....peace out....mwaaah!!!

I CRIED (PART II)

2006-08-31T17:03:00.000+08:00

I CRIED AGAIN

Huh?!! That title again? How many times do I have to cry just for crap reasons?!!
Well I just feel bad kc I thought I was the reason kung bkit pinagpiyestahan ung call koh!!! putsang mgah QA yan... Nasobrahan sa pagiging observant pati tuloy akoh naapektuhan...

So this is how the story goes... Ikuwentoh bah...well this is not a friendster blog anymore so why not... iilang tao lng namn ang nakakaalam na may bloghost nkuh eh...

My QA gave me a feedback this morning tpos ung isang QA na nsa likod nakikinig plah... tpos he approached me nung lunch just to tell me that my QA did something wrong on grading my call... syempreh akoh naman kinig din... I thought that's about it parang samin samin n lng un... because he promise that he wont oppose on my QA tpos bumaba akoh to have my lunch... Then when I went back ayun pinagpipiyestahan na nila ung QA telling him that mali ung grading nyah sken and all that... fuck tlgah as in!!! tpos nkitah ko n lng nah pati ung ibang ngah QA nakikipiyesta na rin sa isyu... putsa tlgah...

I feel bad kc credibility nung QA koh ung on the line... tpos putsa etoh akoh c iyak ayokoh ksing akoh ung cause ng downfall nung isang tao eh... sbi ngah nung mgah taong nakakaalam nung issue wala daw akong kasalanan... pero syempre ung call at metrics ko ung involved so panong hindi akoh mabobother dbah... putsa inisip ko tuloy magresign because of this... bka kc isipin ng QA koh backer ko ung nagtanggol skin eh... tpos initiate ko un pra maquestion syah which
is something I dont do to a person...

Putsa habang nagtype akoh basa na ung keyboard koh... I just cant help it... nahihiya ako tuloy pumasok... Shit tlgah!!! I dont know kung kanino akoh dpat mgalit... Ayokong mainvolved sa ganitong issue... Tpos ung mgah QA nkatingin knina nung pumasok akoh sa pantry prang feeling ko tuloy andami kong audience... Aahhhh kainis!!!

Hanggang ngayon bothered pa rin akoh i just cant seem to get over it... Sbi ngah ni TL Pao isyu na daw ng mgah QA un... Issue that was based on my god damn call!!!

Ksi naman andami kung calls un pah ang na QA sakin... Hay nakuh!!! I feel so guilty of something na hindi ko naman ginawa... putsang konsensya toh grabeh manigaw sa utak...

QUESTIONS FOR EVERYONE WHO MADE ME FEEL CRAPPY

2006-08-28T14:45:00.000+08:00

MGA TANONG KO SA GUMAGO SA'KIN

"What's really goin through your mind right now?" i wanted to ask that question so many times but i cant find the perfect timing... Coz' it just might be treated as a joke haaayy... Life can be so unfair... "Is someone up there really trying to test my patience? Why is this happening to me?

No matter how hard I try to find the right reasons... "Stick to the plan!" That's what I keep telling myself... Stick to what I promised to do, and stick to the promise I made
I hate being involved! its not really the way I want things to fall into... I just simply want a normal life with less complications and hardships (Woooww... This really is not me talking, its someone who's supposed to be sleeping right now... zzzzzzz...)

God knows im really trying my best to get over some stuff... its just not that easy because... I have no idea why because... No idea... But I'll keep trying kahit masiraan nkoh ng uloh kakaisisp kung panoh... I'll still manage to do so... I always will... Me fah!!! Kc naman bkit may word na "JARGON", pti tuloy emotions koh "JARGONS" na rin. Putsa sabog nkoh i really need to get some sleep... Those certain beings are trying to make my life so damn COMPLICATED!!!

Sabi ng QA koh mag probe lng daw akoh ng magprobe prah malaman ko ung problem ni cx... Gawin ko kyah sa real life un? Mag work kyah? Malaman ko rin kyah kung ano ung dapat kong malaman may Dr. dsl at Poll Dslam bang tutulong sakin?...

So many questions but the answers all unknown and not yet to be determined...

SORRY

2006-08-28T09:19:00.000+08:00

SORRY

Yup!!!! thats my title!!! & it supposed to mean the way it supposed to...
I'm sorry to all the people that I've been mean to yesterday... It wasn't intentional its just the wrong mood in the wrong time and i expressed it to the people I'm not supposed to expressed it on...

I apologize to Ma Anne, I made her teary eyed this morning but I'm not mad, really just a little upset but no worries I don't hold grudges... I just hate to be taken for granted by some people, its not really that I'm expecting something in return it's just that at least compromise with me... but i understand if u don't want to... I mean who am i to ask u to compromise right? Oh yeah!!! I already promise to get over this... so I did or until I finish this post hehe...

And lastly... I shouldn't make this apology to someone but I will, just to get it over with.... so that's it I'm sorry for being mean bitch (like that person cares..?!!) oh yeah the promise! Forgot about it... So everything is where its suppose to be.. I hope so to wrap everything up i apologize to my brain (what the fuck?!!!!!) hahaha!!!!!! for making it think more than its suppose to......

And I'm back to my crazy self again! No more tears (like the baby shampoo...) I'm going to survive this... what's the use of the people's advice if I'm not taking it... blah blah blah!!!!

I'm bored!!! I don't have to report to work until Tuesday and my shift changed from evening to morning and I mean EARLY MORNING... sheessh... at least I can get a break from all the emotions around me... yeah.

Sorry, sorry, sorry, hehe I promise certain people not to post anymore blogs that contains stuff like this... Sorry can't keep that promise...

until my next post...

DON'T READ THIS PLEASE

2006-08-28T09:17:00.000+08:00

DON'T READ THIS PLEASE

Alright you can..... just dont tell me u did..... I Don't know i just thought nobody would pay attention to what f@^6!!!!! i wrote here hehehe....I Wish!!! well couple of people told me they read my post ummmm....ok so u know that doesnt mean im in grave danger... right?!!!! ok so someone pretended that they haven't read my first post but i think that someone lied bigtime.....(like how can u miss my first post its just scrolling down hmmmp!!!!) heheh!!!scary the way i think today!!!! i still manage to be silly even though im so sleepy (yawn..)..... i dont know what to think anymore people started to feed my mind with stuff aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! its really so confusing..... there's always the what ifs.... i hate what ifs... but what if..... right?... can i deal with it the way i want to deal with it or the way people think im supposed to deal with it.....(god!!! im even confused while writing this stuff!!!!) i dont know anymore but i hope everybodies wrong.... coz right now i have no clue "if ever" that happens i'll be a total mess.... am i just clueless as everybody else or am i just stupid to fall on my own trap......stupid isn't it..... well u have to be stupid sometimes to learn something........ but does it really have to be this confusing......

I STARTED TO CRY

2006-08-28T09:12:00.000+08:00

I STARTED TO CRY

OK!!!! so this blog thing isn't a good thing...... if u keep on writing ur secrets that u want to keep as a....ccret well just take my word for it.... its not going to be one if u post it.....how stupd can i be?!!!!! so well another confusing day but its really not the reason why my title is like that.....if u read this ull know.....

woooooohhhh....... what a night... we had our first calls this morning around 3 am, me and alec were buddies who unfortunately got the first irate caller (well his not that irate, maybe i'm just too nervous... whatever) and the funny thing is i was so nervous while listening and im not even the one whos taking the call so i wasn't a resourceful buddy at all.... then our mentor karl took over the call coz the cx(Jargons!!!) was the kind of irate.....then after the call i was next and i dont know what came over me, maybe im just really really nervous that i can't even breathe.... then tears start to fall from my eyes and i can't stop it (PANICKED!!!!) i dont know really what came over me, i think its pressure mostly.... then everyone's comforting and looking at me like i'm a freak or something(coz when someone comforts me i tend to cry more...) and i hate myself for that!!! but it calmed me down...and i took my call (aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!)i was still nervous but i was dealing with it.... oh yeahhhh so i cried everyone's teasing me.....telling me i'm the best actress hahaha!!!! i'm going to get better and we'll see who gets the last laugh!!! no just kidding... i'm not mad so i do apologize(EMPHATHY?!!!) to those people that i'm not smiling at and wasn't talking to that much....you know who u are........i just dont have enough energy this morning......i still luv yah!!! i'll make it up to u guys......well i have to take calls again tonight hopefully it gets better....wish me luck.....

Why can't I

2006-08-27T07:28:00.000+08:00

WHY CAN'T I

This past few weeks has been the most confusing weeks of my life....

I'm not just talking about the training but something or maybe someone... hmmm.......
i just cant figure out what the hell is really wrong with me....
i have this act of initiating something and i dont know when im suppose to stop or take my silly jokes seriously.....maybe thats the downside of being a jolly person or a joker coz' I'm the one who gets confused at the end...

I'm back to where i always started....frightened of what's really going to happened, im not that sure if im doing the "not the right thing but the suppose to do thing...." whatever that means.....ill find out in my own ways....and i'll find out soon enough... if the jokes really on me.....

COPY & PASTE

2006-08-27T06:15:00.000+08:00

COPY & PASTE

so this what blog hosting is supposed to look like...
NEWBIE HERE!!!!

my friends actually told me to have this for a more private blog!!! yeah right...

i'll just copy paste everything i have post in the friendster blog...heheh smart kid bah...

so if anyone dares to read this, please agree with me oki...
coz' i've been vulnerable for the past few weeks so my posts are a little (A LITTTLEEEE!!!!!! yeah right....) dramatic.
hope u'll.... u know...